Really struggling with my mental health right now, been diagnosed with bulimia & depression from aged 12 (19 now).
I'm not at uni but hoping to go in September.
I moved out of my parents recently to live with my boyfriend (parents and I didn't get along, not much contact now).
As I moved out of my parents I no longer receive UC (£230pm) as my boyfriend earns more money, but can't give me any.
I've had PIP since I was 14 (£430pm) which was used to support me at home and help my parents out but I had a review recently and I think they will either take it away or reduce it severely.
I have a credit card to pay off that I use for emergencies (most recently a broken laptop that I need to use for job searching & studying) £280 debt from that.
Also a payday loan I stupidly took out when I was 18, £300 left on that.
I feel useless, I spend my days crying or sleeping whilst my boyfriend is out at work, I can't find a job & keep it as I struggle with my MH so badly and it affects me that much. I find it hard to leave the house too. I have no UC anymore to help me buy food and pay my payments off the debt.
I have recently started CBT on the nhs but so far it seems pretty useless.
Whilst it's a nice sunny day today I have never felt worse, useless, lonely, my boyfriend doesn't listen when I say I'm struggling, I have £27 only, no where else to go and I just wish I wasn't here. I might get a payment on the 6th from PIP but I doubt it.