I say heartbroken but that's an understatement.
My Ex and I have three DC together and I stood up as a mother figure in his DDs life (her biological mum isn't around but that's a whole new story)
Even though we're no longer together we have always maintained really close, I would give anything to be with him because to me his the love of my life. I also understood that we were no longer together so I've always been grateful since our split for the friendship we have always had.
Since our split he got with someone else, at first we got on really well but then she grew jealous of me being present in his life and we no longer speak.
No as XDP and I are close we talk to each other about everything, he has had so many ups and downs in his relationship and he has expressed to me that he no longer wants to be with her and he hasn't wanted to for a while. They argue all the time and she'll block him, they're very on and off.
Here's where it gets hard for me. Today she has found out that she's pregnant!
I came to terms with the fact he was with someone new but this has floored me and although I understand this is between them and it isn't about me I just don't know how to get over this. I'm still pining over him, I love him so much and this has broken me.
He doesn't want anymore children and he made this clear to his girlfriend, she was supposedly on the pill but part of me thinks she's done this on purpose to hurt me and to trap him because she knows her relationship is hanging by a thread.
Now this would be easier as if it was any man I'd cut him off completely but he's the father to my DC and I still have to see him and I know it's going to kill me.
All I want to ask is if anyone here has been in a situation where they are heartbroken by their ex having a baby with someone else and how you overcame this.
As not to drip feed, I also suffer quite severely with anxiety and depression and I'm on medication for this. After hearing this news I have had the thoughts of hurting myself. Please don't ask me to explain why, I guess I'm just not a normal person.
