I don't know where to start. Is it enough to say I am having a really hard time at the moment and I can't see a way through? Has anyone else felt like this? When every option seems like a bad one and you don't think its gonna get better and you can't face the fight? When it's gone on so long you've forgotten what normal is? It doesn't help that I am coming down with something, and need all the mega strength I have for the next week or so. I cant do it and I don't want to. I really need to dig deep and try and break the cycle.