I'm really worried

[SnowyMouse]

The voices keep telling me to do stuff, very scary. And CMHT have rung twice yesterday and today, which also scares me as it means they must be worried. I don't know what to do, I'm scared they might hurt me.

thanks both, worth a go

Well the clinician is 1.75 hours late, starting to think they're not coming.

I hope they will get there. Can you call the clinic and find out?

It rang through to switchboard, so I guess the team have gone home.

SnowyMouse cab you email them. Just keep calm. Get plenty of real and some fresh air and tall to them Monday. You seem to be calmer, which is great.

Another one handholding OP and sending hugs

Sending and a handhold OP

Go to a and e. You will be seen by duty psych. Or call crisis team x

Their email says they monitor the inbox 9-17:00 monday to friday. I have emailed PALS to ask how I contact the team lead/manager, i.e. who to send an email FAO, but they shut at 4:30 on Friday.

Thanks for the support.

I work for a CMHT, that's really bad that they didn't phone, I'm sorry

I hope you manage to get through the weekend

Thanks Xmastummyhasgonebig - with previous care coordinators they've always dropped an email/phoned if they couldn't make it (e.g. because of emergencies). They also phoned my Dsis rather than me (by mistake), but told her who they were and why they were phoning, which seems wrong to me too - I thought they were supposed to ask to speak with SnowyMouse, and not disclose any other information if they were told they had the wrong number.

Just stuffed my face as a distraction

I'm wondering if I should try to make contact with them tomorrow.

What are the voices telling you to do x

the voices tell me to walk into traffic, or drink household chemicals.

OK. I see things rather than hear them. I see dead body parts.
It's horrific but you need to use logic to rationalise them.
Have you had CBT? It's NICE guidelines for psychosis.
Look for the logic. They aren't there, they aren't real. Do you have PRN mediation e.g. diazepam which you can take in the interim? Sometimes I just drink which is bad advice but it helps me.
You can ring the crisis team and they can come out-today.
You deserve to feel better. I know how it is, it's frightening.
Can you tell me more about the voices? I have chattering like I'm in a big room, or an angry man. That stems from my father' s anger and I rationalise it as such. What are yours x

Is it bipolar you have? x

Thanks 70sbaubles, I do have some prn diazepam, hadn't thought of that. I can hear them coming from behind my head, they talk to each other about me too.

Yes I get this. The angry voice one is always on the right.
The two women are on the left but behind.
Take some PRN, either ring Crisis (they are really good for psychosis rather than suicidal ideation), or chase up CMHT tomorrow. Just get through the day.

Thanks - I have been texting the samaritans, which helps. I'll think about CMHT tomorrow.

Definitely chase them x

I'm not sure what to think now, I chased the care coordinator a few minutes ago, and the reason he didn't come was his car broke down. Surely he should have made contact/asked someone else to to say? When I spoke with the doctor she was adamant someone should come out last Wednesday, but maybe the team changed their mind, I don't know. I feel like raising some issues with the team lead, but don't want to say anything if they've just changed their minds.

Just focus on when they are coming.
From our side its easy to think they know us but from theirs they have to prioritise the worst ie suicidal, then follow up. When are they coming x

They're coming tomorrow afternoon...

That's good.