I'm really struggling..

[Captainmomtotherescue]

Partner and I had an almighty row, over him not speaking to me about withdrawing money. Now he's god knows where, telling me that his feelings aren't taken into account and that he doesn't want to sort it out, he can't be arsed etc.

I have anxiety and depression. He's awaiting a referral to a psychiatrist.

I'm so confused, anxious, hurt and feel generally crap. Because of some things he's said, I'm questioning my capabilities of being a mom, our entire (just over 3 year) relationship and my capabilities of being a functioning human.

Please, anyone? I feel so alone and broken.

so sorry Captainmom that sounds awful. Remember, we all say things we do not mean in the heat of anger. It is not necessarily how he really feels. Do you have anyone IRL who you can call to come be with you?

I'm at my parents but they don't like the things I'm saying so they keep shouting and I can't deal with it. I feel like my whole life is falling apart at the seams and I can't do anything right. No one else will talk to me. I've tried a few different avenues.

Sending Op

I'm sure you are a very good mum, please don't think you're anything but.

What sort of things are your parents struggling to hear? Is it worth writing it down to them so you know you're getting your points across with out being shouted out? X

The thoughts that are running through my head. I'm no longer in CBT because my counsellor said I'd be better with a talking therapy, but I'm still waiting. There is so much going on in my life and I don't seem to be able to talk to my family as it upsets/angers them. I have no idea what's happening with my relationship. All the interviews I'm attending are leading nowhere. I have no friends. My (ex?) Partners children are having a rough time (ss). Christmas is coming and money is really tight. Probably going to have to borrow (yet more) money to get through the month.
DS keeps asking where daddy is and saying he wants his daddy and I'm just so lost.

Things just got worse - I'm a wreck. In floods of tears, chest pain, feel like my heart is ripping in two. I told him that and his response was that he was happy he wasn't with me as he no longer has to be careful of what he says and does.

We were discussing Engagement rings and weddings last week. How did things get from that to this? I feel so alone.