So mumsnet deleted my previous thread, but thank you for the replies. I didn't get to read them all properly.
Basically, I've been feeling pretty down lately. Haven't spoken to anyone about it and worried about seeing a doctor. I'd rather just not be here as I don't feel like I have anything to live for anymore.
Just wanted to speak to someone/anyone that has been in a similar position or knows what to do. I'm scared of opening up to anyone in real life