i can't even commit suicide

[Ohshitwhatnext]

Such a fucking failure that I can't even bring myself to do it.
going to see my gp tomorrow to see if I can con them into signing me off work before I get the sack for being so fucking useless.

You're asking for help and that's a huge step so well done. Is there anyone you can call? Even the Samaritans, you need to keep talking.

Well done for admitting that you feel unwell. Do get yourself to the GP but not to con them, ask them for help. It sounds like you need it.

Hi, OP,

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You have not failed. Very far from it. You've come on here for a start and make the important step of arranging to see your GP. Be extraordinarily kind to yourself today.
I was signed off work recently - took the week to switch off work - and know that I can go back for more time out if I need it. Or the possibility of the company making some adjustments to my working pattern is there too.
from me too.

if i can see the gp tomorrow would they think i am stupid if i write them a note of the shit that is stressing me out. i don't think i can tell them without crying.
i don''t know that i will be able to see one as the first appointment on the online booking system is the week before xmas.

anybody? please? will I look stupid?

I think writing a note is a great idea. I'm a crier too and it can make it hard to talk.

A note is perfect for times when talking is hard.

Its ok to write notes. If you're feeling that bad if phone first thing and tell the receptionist how bad it is. That way normally a gp will call you back and ideally make an appointment. I know it's not easy but you obviously need some help.

Write down how you feel and why you think you are like this (if you know).

You don’t just want time off work - you want to feel better again.

My GP likes it when everything is listed either on a phone or in a note.

Just talk to your GP. Take a note with you, I have in the past because there is so much to remember and it's easy to not say all if it. You are not conning your GP, anxiety stress depression all have physical effects.

Just say what you want, Doctor I need to be signed off because I'm not coping well. If you've had suicidal thoughts, tell them it will help you to get treatment.

If the GP asks you how long you feel you need say 3 weeks it takes about two for medication to help you.

Now sit quietly for a bit. Push away the thoughts about work and other stuff, play some yoga music, YouTube it. It will help you to relax. Close your eyes and push your tongue to the roof of your mouth.

Every time you start to have anxious thoughts, do that.

Do you have family or friends with you? Company is alwats a good distraction.

Ring journal surgery first thing tomorrow morning 8:30 is usually opening time, tell them your distress and do a site and wait.

Alternatively if you really are having difficulty functioning go to A&E the crisis mental health team will be able to see you.

Writing it all down is a brilliant idea.

I was all set up but I couldn't do it when it came to it either.

Best decision I ever made - honestly. Like you, just the fact that I'd got that far pushed me to get help from my GP. You're doing the right thing.

i will write a note for the gp.
i don't have any friends so i'm on my own, nor family.
i'm a student so two weeks will take me to the xmas holidays

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

A note sounds like a good idea OP :)

Just to reiterate what a PP said - if you can't get a GP appointment then it is entirely appropriate to go to A&E. It would also be appropriate to go to A&E tonight if you don't want to wait until the morning.

If you do call the GP, do let them know it's urgent, as they should have some emergency appointments available.

Sometimes work can be really scary, and you aren't the only one to suffer like this. I remember driving 20 miles into work one Sunday afternoon when I thought I'd missed a deadline. (I hadn't, thank God). Please try not to stress too much over it OP. I'm sure you'll be ok.

Hello OP,
Really sorry to read how you are feeling. I don't have any experience in the field of Mental Health, but what I'd like to say to you, is, there is nothing, absolutely nothing, worth taking your own life for.
Your life is very precious.
Is there no one in your personal life to help you?
You say you are a student - what about College/University support staff?
If student life doesn't suit you, for whatever reason, there's no shame giving it up for an alternative.
Same applies to the work you currently do. Did you get the proper training? Perhaps leave and try to find something less stressful.
Previous posters have said about the Samaritans. People do care.

You say you are a student - what about College/University support staff?
If student life doesn't suit you, for whatever reason, there's no shame giving it up for an alternative.
Same applies to the work you currently do. Did you get the proper training? Perhaps leave and try to find something less stressful.

I have spoken to the uni support staff today. My work (in health care!) is part of my course so it's not so easy to leave without leaving the whole course.

I have written a note to the gp.

Op, life is full of things going wrong. Believe you will get through this but while that happens take each day a step at a time. You are important! Take care of yourself and talk to your gp. No gp would think you were stupid! Xxx

Write a note in as much detail as you can it will be really helpful

Hope matters resolve for you

@Ohshitwhatnext just dropped by again to see if your coping ok. Good that you've got it on paper. Hit the call button tomorrow morning around 8:30 maybe earlier but keep on ringing, monday morning appointments evaporate. Tell them it's crisis and either get a sit and wait or emergency appointment

thank you. I have managed to get out of bed (been in it nearly all weekend) and had a mug of soup and done a bit of laundry.