Had a bad day. Got overwhelmed driving home so stopped to call samaritans. No answer. Drove a bit further and had to stop as unsafe to drive. So so hard to not get even more desperate when they're so busy you don't reach someone.
Never feel able to call RL local friends when I'm in that state.
They did answer in the end and i spoke long enough to be calm enough to carry on.
I just feel so alone at times. I had emailed 2 of my MH supporters but feel they're getting impatient with me.