Thank you Fairy I feel like I've come a long way. I didn't realise how bad I was until I look back and think oh god, yep, I see it now, but you don't realise it at the time. Biggest mistake for me, which I'm still bad for, and therapy is trying to help me realise it, that I shouldn't be ashamed of needing help and when I'm struggling to speak up and say, well no actually I'm not ok. A habit I've had since I was younger, but that's a long story...
Oh no Iblinkedandiamold I can imagine. I think the way you have been treated is quite frankly, appalling. No need for that in your life. You deserve to be happy.
I'm having to be up at 5am tomorrow. Just realised I have to have a shower! I thought, when I got in from work today, right! I'll get myself all organised, I'll have a shower straight away so I don't have to worry about that. Get my clothes washed and dried, and more importantly make myself something to eat! Have I done any of those things? Well one, I've done one. Washed my clothes, that's it. Currently chilling having a beer, and now it's suddenly dawned on me, crap! I need to do the other two things. I only got in 5 hours ago