Anxiety support, Hand hold or chit chat come say hi #3

[Fairydust26]

Can you believe the last threads full up?! We had a great support network going on the previous two so come and say a big hello and join us.

That’s horrible Gothamgirl1970 did you ask them their reasons for this?

FFS - the soul of salesperson - ??? - twats!

Sorry that was not the most articulate post, it was written from the heart, though. Hoping all is going ok for you all.

Got up: 8.30
Exercise: 10 min cross trainer, walked to hairdresser (about 40 mins round trip)
Food. Hmm. Could be better. 2x 40 gr hazelnut chocolate.
Work. Check. Gone through list.
Feelings: awful. Crushed. Soldiering on.

Hi all, dropped off a little.
I actually managed to email my counsellor this week with some things I want to discuss, which I’ve only done once before , namely that I am too good at making excuses, and why do I make life hard for myself, I’m not happy the way I am so why am I not helping myself?

One thing that I’m always reading about is people who say “yes” to everything and have difficulty saying “no”. I have the opposite! That’s what I mean by the excuses thing, that I’m always finding reasons not to do things eg applying for jobs etc. How utterly typical of me that I have the opposite problem to what most people have

How did everyone get on today? My day was going relatively well until about half an hour ago when this horrible wave of anxiety came over me. I managed to ground myself as such and have calmed a little bit now I’ve got anticipation anxiety that it’s going to happen again, is it too early to jump into bed yet?!

Sounds horrible Fairydust. Was it about anything in particular or just general? Good that you managed to calm down a bit.

toffee1000 not that I can put my finger on but that’s the joy of anxiety isn’t it.

I see from your post you’ve emailed your counsellor that’s great hopefully they can help you. I should probably see one but I’m too scared lol😂

Hi all sorry to barge in but really need some support. I have depression and anxiety and just restarted citalopram. My anxiety has increased tenfold since starting - day 6 now. Did anyone else have that and still get better?

Also I have absolutely no appetite and have lost so much weight - really need to get the anxiety under control so I can eat again!

Windywel when I started sertraline the first few weeks I experienced heightened anxiety amongst other side effects. But once you eventually become settled on them they do begin to work, just take it one day at a time hopefully you start to feel the benefits of them soon!.

I’m not on antidepressants, but from what I’ve seen on here, it’s pretty normal for someone to feel like that when they first start them. Hopefully they kick in soon and work their magic.

I’m on antidepressants I’m waiting for them to kick in and work

Thanks fairydust so did you you gave the heightened anxiety for a good couple of weeks? I’m really worried that because it’s not easing after 1 week that means they’re not going to work

Windywel the first week was horrible for me The heightened anxiety was so bad I even had panic attacks but after about 4-6 weeks or so the anxiety had decreased drastically little by little each day. I’m at a point now that even though I still experience some level of anxiety it’s defiantly not at the extent it was before the meds, I can deal with it a lot better. These things do take a while to work. Keep an eye on it and if you feel like they aren’t working in a couple of weeks go back to your gp it might be that you need a different dose or maybe different medication.

Great advice!

How are you doing today Gothamgirl1970?

Hi. I had a good interview this morning. They have progressed me to the next round of interviews. Tomorrow I have therapy in the morning and the doctor in the afternoon to increase my medicine.

How are you doing?

Hi folks how are you all?

I am resurfacing from a huge huge self-destructive meltdown. Possibly also made worse by PMS. Now floored by Period from Hell (TM).

I have spent the past two days on sofa feeling sorry for myself. This morning I went out to town to see a friend and then - floored on sofa. No energy. I am completely burned down by this. This is fucking hard.

I had a really good job interview on Thursday though, like @Gothamgirl1970 (btw, congratulations GG!!) and I too will move to the next stage. I have also got two more interviews next week, on Monday and on Thursday.

So I must, must believe that things are moving forward.

Wishing you all the best for the weekend!

Evening all, good luck to you both MonnaLiza and Gothamgirl1970 on the job interviews hope you smash em!.

Today’s be relatively uneventful but I did manage to pick the remaining apples off my apple tree and have made a apple and blackberry crumble😋 hope you all have a fab weekend!.

Hi all.

I've had a tough week at work, lots of stress and pressure, but was managing my (non work related) anxiety fairly well and putting my trigger worries out of my mind, until I took a phone call this afternoon, which whilst nothing of note, dug up a load of triggers which brought my anxiety rushing back.

I've pent that last few hours desperately trying not to let it overcome me and take over and I've just about managed to put things back in their box. I can hear them in there, and I know they're in there, but I'm not letting them out to control me, but it's hard.

I find that if I try to fight them, it makes matters worse, where if I let things wash over from a more observational perspective, they pass more quickly.

I hate how my mind has control over me sometimes.

What I'm trying not to do is 'just have a drink to relax with' as I fear that will become a habit and it's not one I want to start.

I'm feeling fairly calm right now and hope I can let things gradually filter away to the background where they don't 'own' me and I can enjoy my weekend.

Hugs to everyone suffering right now.

Hi all

Had a GP appointment yesterday and finally bit the bullet and asked for AD's. I'd gone for something else, and kind of blurted it out, I just felt stupid, not even worthy of my problems

The GP, she was very kind, asked if Citalopram had worked for me in the past (I'd taken it very briefly before) and so prescribed it.

Well done those of you who are struggling keeping going

Hi all how are you all doing?

I had read something today about anxiety/panic attacks it had mentioned something along the lines of, I’ve felt it before, will probably feel it again - but it’ll be ok.

For some reason this really struck a cord with me. It so easy when we’re in the height of anxiety to forget to think rationally, panic more but that it does always eventually pass. But knowing that I’ve been through these attacks before and I’ve always got through them helps me cope with it and realise even though it’s horrid I’m not in danger!.

I’ve only ever had one panic attack. Actually, I don’t even know if it was one. I was 11, in my year 7 RS end of year exam. I suddenly realised I couldn’t answer any of the questions and I freaked out. I didn’t have any kind of “omg I feel like I might die” feeling. My reaction worried some of the other girls in the room... my head of year spoke to me outside the room. I only got 34% that year. My teacher didn’t mention the freak out in my report that year, I think she said something about it not really being reflective of my ability or something, I assume she got told about it.

The internship I did was in conjunction with an autism charity, and I’m speaking to someone from there tomorrow to talk about what I find difficult about applying for jobs. I’ve found examples of job adverts to chat about, as some of the reason is that it always feels like adverts are asking for qualities I don’t feel I possess. I do also take some stuff quite literally so I may just be taking things very much at face value, so hopefully they can talk to me and help me understand just what job adverts are asking for.

Hello all, wishing you all the best for the coming week.

I have an interview today and have also started to take Sertraline on Friday. It seems to have already started to help in the sense that my anxiety has toned down a little.

It's just that there is so much going against me at the moment, precarious job situation and applying for jobs, deaths in the family, changing identity/ageing (aargh), Brexit uncertainty ... feels like I am hit from all directions and this uncertainty is changing me, the sunny and happy person I used to be. I miss the old me.

Ok, end of rant and thank you for listening :)

Hello, my interview went ok but I am hugely overqualified for really dull job. I don't think they will choose me! And if they did, not sure I would accept. The interviewers were lovely people though!

It's my day 3 of Sertraline.