Anxiety support, Hand hold or chit chat come say hi #3

[Fairydust26]

Can you believe the last threads full up?! We had a great support network going on the previous two so come and say a big hello and join us.

@Fairydust26 I'm on 40mg Citalopram and have been for years. It's enough to keep me functioning unless I hit a bump in the road. But when I do hit a bump in the road it doesn't really do anything for me. I'm off to the docs this morning to see if I can get something for the anxiety just to get through the next few days.

FleshLiabilities how did the doctors go?

Doc gave me some diazepam and sleeping tabs for next couple of weeks and has referred me to a psychiatrist. I'm fairly sedated at the moment and have managed to sleep most of the day but not been able to eat much.

Hoping to get some reassurance but also get lost in here (does anyone else panic about being recognised when they haven't told their friends/family the extent of their panic?) I have suffered with anxiety on and off since separating from my husband 2 years ago, we co-parent very amicably for the children but I still hate him for what a shit husband he was, however that is working well. I have a job I love and wonderful friends but every so often get into a complete state about how I am a terrible person, what difference do I make in the world etc. I have started self harming again and am on lorazepam almost daily after only having it occasionally for the past 18 months. I cannot seem to calm down. I saw a counsellor before I separated who was great but I feel totally ashamed to go back, to say that my life is great, I got what I wanted when I separated, I have enough money to live on and a secure job, happy children etc. What the fuck do I have to feel anxious about? I haven't told any friends or family either, about how I'm feeling or the self harm, but like speaking to the counsellor I'm just so ashamed and furious with myself for feeling like this. I'm cancelling on friends too as I can't bear the thought of being out socially so won't have many friends left anyway at this rate. Any words of wisdom? (Actually, I think I just needed to vent somewhere anonymous so thanks for listening!)

DieselOilAndAnger yes I don’t think anyone knows the full extent of my anxiety it’s not something I shout about from the roof tops! But the thought of friends, family whoever finding out gives me more anxiety it’s as if it’s this big dirty secret and really it shouldn’t be. I don’t have any words of wisdom but I do find writing on here with people that feel the same as me helps loads.

Hi everyone I hope you don't mind me joining in.
I'm having a bad time at the minute ..well since June.
I've suffered with anxiety for years but not like this.
The physical symptoms are ruining my life.
I have PVCs (extra heart beats every 20 seconds) has every check under the sun and told it's anxiety.
I have a choking feeling round my throat,then il get sore right ribs and burning.
Il shake at times and I've had two really bad panic attacks in the last week.
I think I need medication but no idea what.

Welcome louiserh33😊 I find it’s the physical symptoms that set my anxiety off too, I can just about handle the mental
Side of it but throw in a sensation and I’m a anxious mess!. Have you seen your gp at all? I’ve found taking medication has helped me more than when I wasn’t.

Happy New Year Everyone. Hope you are all doing well. I am looking forward to getting back to work on Monday, well back into a routine anyway. I went to the parkrun this morning, came back and spent the rest of the day on the sofa in my pjs.

Hi new members.

At the moment I am watching an old episode of Casualty and thinking that is one unlucky hospital. Such carnage and destruction.

Hello,

Haven't used this before so not sure if anyone will reply.

Currently not feeling well, sore throat and runny nose etc, I suffer really badly with anxiety, I was on tablets for a year but off them now, I'm still no better, if not worse, I suffer quite bad from health anxiety, any little lump or bump I always assume the worst and start googling! Anyway the point of this thread was because I've noticed my pupils are different sizes, only ever so slightly, my partner doesn't notice it but I can and it's worrying me, I'm not sure if being Ill has got anything to do with it but just wanted to see if there was anyone on here that could put my mind at ease? I also went to see an eye doctor last year and they said my eyes were healthy etc but I've only just noticed the difference in pupils over the last few days (which is when I started feeling ill). Any advice would be great!

Hippo0319 googling is a massive no I’ve done that many times and scared myself half to death with the results!. I know it’s hard but try and look at the positives you’ve seen the eye doctor in the last year and they said your eyes were perfectly healthy, if it was something sinister they would of spotted it then remember our bodies can do strange things when we’re anxious.

I know how deliberating health anxiety can be but try and give yourself a few days and if your still worried book a gp appointment if anything to put your mind at ease.

Hi everyone. Thought I'd join in. Before I start on me, Hippo, my dd has exactly the same thing, one pupil slightly bigger than the other and she had the optician check it out. Perfectly fine and just one of those things. Nothing to worry about.

I'm a fellow anxiety sufferer. It comes in waves, OK for a while then it hits me again. I cope without meds. Because it comes and goes I think I don't need them so just stumble through life.
However, it seems to have been one thing after another for the past year. Nothing serious in reality, but serious in my head. I over react to things and blow them all out of proportion. I had some health issues, again not serious, but went on for many months and I had a mini meltdown in October where I was crying all the time, not eating etc. Got over that and I'm very uneasy again. Its almost as if my brain looks for things to fret over and can't let me relax. Anyhow, enough of that for now.
Hope I can join in, get some support and maybe give some too.

Hi both,

I went to see my GP this morning and she said she couldn't see any abnormalities with my eyes which puts my mind at ease, she did mention about me going to CBT sessions to speak to a professional which I think I should of done a while ago!

Thank you both for replying to me by the way. And sorry if your feeling low at the minute, I'm not sure how to respond to people individually on here, it doesn't seem to let me.

Hello everyone
My anxiety is bad haven't left the house since sept.
Started anti dep and I said I'm not sleeping or eating.
Can you help and she said il have to just suffer. Her words :-(

ashleyharriet33 was it your gp that told you to just suffer? If so that’s terrible i’d be making a complaint and seeing a different gp!. What medication are you on?

Truffles1964 hello hope you find some comfort posting here we’re all in the same boat

Hippo0319 glad your gps managed to put your mind at ease, cbt is something I could probably do with aswell but the thought of it terrifies me😬

Thank you Fairydust. Its good to offload sometimes and just be honest.
CBT seems to be the thing of the moment for everything. I tried a short course on the telephone and it just didn't suit me. I pretended it was fine but just thought it was a load of bollocks. For me anyway, not saying it wouldn't benefit others but it just doesn't gel with my brain I suppose.
Ashleigh I too would be going back to doctors. That's just not on.
Hippo I'm glad your doc was able to reassure you.

It's the same old same old with me (negative thinking, mental shutdown/"nope nope nope can't do that"/etc). I am flipping SICK of it. My mother tells me how I have "so much to offer" but I just can't see it. And at the same time I just think my mental ill health isn't as bad as other people's; a friend from school is in a long-term residential placement after years of BPD/PTSD and being suicidal multiple times. My life is pretty decent really. So when I occasionally browse the mental health section I just see people who have much worse anxiety than me, who have had genuinely shitty things happen to them, and so I just think "well why the hell do I feel like this?" I know mental illness can strike anyone no matter who they are but I still don't feel like my problems are as serious as other people's.

I need to make this year the year I actually DO something about my mental health problems. (But then it's a case of "oh god I'm worried about talking to the GP/what if counselling doesn't work" etc). Because the counsellor can only do so much; it's down to ME to actually carry out the advice. I need to put the effort in.

Toffee, I feel like that too, my mental health problems are not as bad as others. However I stopped comparing myself to others. My problems were affecting me and my family. It affected the way I interact with my family and others. Maybe it had a hand in driving my son away. I might have been able to handle the situation better.
My life has also been good but both my parents have mental health issues.
Sure I was able to work but it did affect the way I did my job. I was near tears most days and exhausted due to lack of sleep.

Don't compare yourself to others. Good luck with it. I didn't want to talk to my doctor, I was embarrassed, I've known him for a long time. He couldn't have been more sympathic. He was really lovely. I am so glad I did it.

Started Christmas shopping today by accident. Was in Boots getting a few bits and saw a lovely scantuary gift set, half price. My friend loves Scantuary. She'll love it..if I don't use it myself.

Iblinkedandiamold yes best time to do it when everything is in the sales! I managed to get some Xmas wrapping paper 15p a roll bargain!😆 how are you getting on the threads gone quiet hope that means everyone’s doing good.

I'm doing okay. Not great. I have coursework and Boot camp keeping me busy. Most days I am teary though. I don't know why. It might be because I realised I am getting old and my biological clock is ticking. I always wanted more children, it just never happened.

Oh freaking out a little. Just realised I only have 3 months left until i am finished my course. 3 months...I still have a shit load of work to do.

Iblinkedandiamold do you have a study plan? I would always go through what I had to do that week, what things I had planned and set aside a couple of hours to do coursework That way I didn’t feel so overwhelmed with it all.

I do, problem is I don't stick to it. . I really so aim to stick to it this time though. I hope. Sometimes I get a little caught up with work so don't get the time. I have to do up lessons plans for work as well as course work. I really don't get paid enough.

Hello,

Please can I join?

I have had OCD since the age of 8, it's been severe since I was 15 and it's had a major impact on my life. I've also been struggling with a bad episode since the start of January.

I had a health scare (with a two week suspected cancer pathway referral for possible inflammatory breast cancer) quite recently and I think that impacted on my anxiety (my OCD is not health-anxiety based though). I've also had flu for about three weeks, which can't have helped either!

Which treatments has everyone else found helpful? I'm currently having weekly Psychologist appointments but I'm not on medication and do wonder if I should be!

Hi lizabel. Sorry about your scare. I am on Sertraline 100mg.
I feel it works okay for me although I might go back to the doctor again as I have been very low recently. Also this has become the only place I feel comfortable posting. If I post anywhere else on mumsnet I start feeling anxiety creeping in, where as before I didn't really care.

I haven't tried anything else, no CBT or counselling but maybe I should look into that too.
I am finding exercising is helping. I feel a little calmer after going for a walk or to Boot camp.
Hope everyone else is okay.