Anxiety support, Hand hold or chit chat come say hi #3

[Fairydust26]

Can you believe the last threads full up?! We had a great support network going on the previous two so come and say a big hello and join us.

that's awful Bippity. Maybe if you do get diagnosed with BP it'll start to get better. You've had it so tough for years.

And my DC is unwell. Currently sitting on the sofa shaking, choked up with a cold and I'm so worried. I'm not going to sleep tonight. And I have to be up at 5am. He's only 2 and half he doesn't talk yet so I can't even ask if he's ok.

I just want to bury myself under the covers until the new year comes. I don't feel suicidal, mainly just suicidal thoughts and anger mainly. If I knew my DC and DP would be secure I would quite happily not want to wake up tomorrow.

And yes, it's the stealing of my pram that has set all of this off. It's just the icing on the cake. So my appointment tomorrow is going to be fun!

I hope your appointment goes well tomrrow bippity. I wouldn't blame you for being angry about the pram. That was really low.
Feeling a bit low myself. I am not one for crying, I had to stop myself several times today. Driving home from work and listening to Christmas songs set me off.
I think it's coming up to my time of the month though so that would explain that.

I used to get really bad PMS. Used to think I was going crazy about a week before, then the relief that everything was ok! It was just my hormones being a bugger.

Got the implant, which helped massively and I didn't get the symptoms again. Then I came off it on one of my 'highs', fell pregnant, then the same day my DC was born, had the injection. Had put on about 4 stone and thought it must be the contraceptive, so stopped it, hoping my weight would return to normal it's hasn't

Then I thought maybe it's just hormones and that's why my moods were a bit up and down, but it's been almost two years now, and it doesn't seem to happen when I'm due. So fuck knows now.

I think now it's all those chemicals over the years, coupled with a fragile personality, that everything has gone tits up.

BippityBoppity87 hope your appointment goes well today and you get some sort of answers .

Good luck today Bippity.

Thank you. I'm not looking forward to it st all, but I suppose who would!

Yep, bipolar disorder. Merry Christmas everyone!

Oh bippy at least now you’ve got some answers. What’s the next plan of action?

I've been prescribed aripiprazole as well as some more zoplicone on top of my sertraline that I have to collect in a couple of days. And to see the psychiatrist again in 6 weeks.

How do you feel now you’ve actually got a diagnosis? Must be some relief to know what the matter is now.

I don't know really. I just really don't know what to think right now. I guess I kind of always knew, but just ignored it and made an even bigger mess of my life at the same time without actually getting help.

Take a day to let it sink in Bippity. At least you have some answers now and a plan of action in place.

Oh dear. Now my DS has my money he's picking fights again. I just feel like cutting him off but I can't do that, I miss him so much but I am so sick of everything being my fault. Nothing is good enough. Why do I bother. I even asked him that. I now have a lead feeling in my stomach and I want to throw up. I just want to disappear. I feel like taking down my tree and packing it all away. One message from him or her and I am spiralling. I don't want him to reply. It's not all onesided. They need to accept responsibility too.

Why is it always me that has to back down. Why can't they just say " Yep we were asshole too. We treated you like shit. We are sorry"
Why is everything my fault. Why did he text me this late, now I won't get any sleep. I don't have any sleeping tabs left just herbal shit. I should stop texting him. I will, I will ignore his last text. He's an adult. Time he started acting like an adult.
Yep. I'll go to bed, everything will look better in the morning..I hope. I don't know. I need it all to stop. I need everything to just stop.

Hey everyone, can I join this thread please? I’ve struggled with anxiety about various things for as long as I can remember, but felt it was mostly under control for the past few years. It’s been getting worse again since the birth of my son 10 months ago though, and I’ve made a GP appt for tomorrow morning. Never seen a doctor about it before, so feeling pretty nervous. I tried to talk to my Health Visitor about how I’ve been feeling yesterday, but she didn’t seem to take it seriously and just said that all parents worry - but the level of anxiety I’ve got doesn’t feel manageable any more, and it’s affecting how I interact with and what I do with my baby. But I’m now worried the doctor will say the same and just dismiss me .

How’s everyone else doing this week?

Of course tiptoetobed welcome😊 first off a big well done for making a doctors appointment I know how hard it can been to ask for help for anxiety I was petrified! it took years for me to pluck up the courage to go. Let the doctor know how much your really struggling a good one will offer you the help you need.

Thank you fairydust, it does feel like a massive step even having made the appointment. I should have asked for help with it years ago really, it’s only now that I can see it will affect my son as he grows up that I’ve found the motivation to do so. I’ve seen this GP before (for non-anxiety related reasons) and I think she will be understanding, but I’ve still got that feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach already at the thought of going in!

I need to chat to someone, even if it's just people online on this thread.

My anxiety has been terrible today.

I am also feeling erratic, as if I'm doing/sayings things I have no control over which I instantly regret and can't believe I actually did. I don't think if this is anxiety related but it's scaring me so I'd appreciate some advice. I feel out of control, as if I can't control myself.

Hi starzzzz, I haven’t experienced what you describe re the out of control feeling, but are you taking any meds for anxiety - if so, could it be a side effect of those? Have you got anyone with you right now? Perhaps you could phone your GP first thing in the morning and get an emergency appointment for tomorrow.

@tiptoetobed I am not taking any meds right now, no. I don't have anyone home I can talk to about this, and yes I'll try the GP. thank you for your reply

Hi I suffer with anxiety and depression really bad I get aching tingling arms feel hot cold and feel sick my mind keeps telling me it my heart but I've had it checked out and all's fine but I do tbelive it and think I'm gonna die it's awful I'm on anti d meds but most days I'm a sobbing mess x

tiptoetobed good luck at the docs today😊

Welcome Starzzzzz & ilovesprouts how you feeling today?