Anxiety support, Hand hold or chit chat come say hi #3

[Fairydust26]

Can you believe the last threads full up?! We had a great support network going on the previous two so come and say a big hello and join us.

Hi everyone I’m looking for s handhold, I have a phobia of vomiting and tonight for the first time in years I was sick!
I am currently laying here waiting for the next bout 😣 So scared but at the same time I just want it over with!
Don’t know what to do 😞

Hazandduck I have this phobia too strangely enough I usually find it’s not as bad as I worry it is when it actually happens, saying that it doesn’t stop me panicking when it happens again or I feel the slightest bit sick!. How are you feeling today better I hope?

I actually feel awful. I’m waiting for a call from 111. Thanks for your message @fairydust26, I’ve managed a couple of cups of tea and rich tea biscuits, a couple of grapes and some toast but just started to feel really hot and sick again and I think it may actually be mastitis causing me to be sick (this is my third bout and I was hospitalised before.) Feel so feverish and hurt all over! I’ve taken an antisickness tablet but I’m scared I will still be sick 😣 it’s been nearly 18 hours since I was sick but I still feel so unsettled it’s horrjblr. Sorry to rant I am just panicking. The nights are the worst, they just feel so long 😢

Oh Hazandduck that's terrible, I really hope you feel better soon.

This is the place to rant. I do it all the time.

Oh gosh @Hazandduck how are you feeling now? That sounds awful

I remember when I was in early labour, being sent away, then throwing up outside the car when people were on their morning commute. Oh, and I pissed myself, but I didn't care at the time!

Can I join. I came to the topic looking for the village threads from a while back but can't see them. Things are not good for me again. Had a steady few months but now I'm going downhill fast. Just want to crawl back to bed and wouldn't care if I never woke up again. Sadly not an option as I have work shortly. Why is living so tough.

Hi @Knittedfrog

Oh no what's made you feel like that? I've felt like that in the past

A wee update with what's going on with me. Seen my therapist today and I just flat out asked why I was having to see the psychiatrist and she said that although she can't diagnose, she suspects I have either bipolar 1 or 2 disorder.

To be honest it will be such a relief to finally get some answers! It's only been 15 years

Just dipping my toes in. I’ve been prescribed propranolol this week to help with the physical symptoms of anxiety. Currently on 40mg daily but still struggling. The doctor offered to sign me off sick but I’m trying to stick it out for now. Going to go back on Monday to look at increasing my dosage.

Someone has stolen my fucking pram! Silver cross. Who steals a fucking pram?! fucking scum bags. I'm so upset.

Ah seriously Bippity that's scummy. Years ago my friend's buggy was taken off a bus. Bus company said it happened all the time.
I went to see Santa turn on the town lights tonight. I got a bit emotional and shed a few tears.

Knittedfrog hang in there. We're here for you.

I can't believe it. I think I'm still in shock. I've posted on the local Facebook selling pages, but I think, who does that?

What makes it worse, is the fact I'm on AD's I can't vent out my frustration or cry.

All I'm thinking is fuck them, I'll buy a new shiny £600 pram!

Started to put up my tree today. It took me an hour to put the tree up no lights or decorations on it yet.

I'm still pretty pissed off. Haven't even thought about decorating anything yet. I just think what scumbag steals a pram?! Arseholes. Scum of the earth. I believe in karma so they will get what's coming to them.

That sucks bippity makes you think what kind of person does that! surely they’ve got to be a parent to want to steal a pram why else would they? I’ve had someone pitch my ds scooter from my own front garden my dp had to chase the arsehole up the road to get it back!

I wouldn't blame you for being annoyed. When DS was a baby I had my wallet nicked several times. Money was extremely tight so I used to cry for days over it. Another time a toy was taken off his buggy while I was shopping looking for some clothes for him. (Hoping that was just a child that liked it) my phone was taken again several times from the side pocket of the changing bag. This was a time when phones were bricks, not internet or camera but still. It made me angry to think that someone felt they could my stuff. .
Another time 200 euro was taken from my wallet at a wedding. I had just got paid, cashed the cheque but didn't have time to put in my account. Had no money until the next pay day.

I've had the same in the past @Iblinkedandiamold I've had money (twice) stollen from my purse at work and my mobile phone. I just think, who does that?! Stealing in my book is sneaky, vile and a horrid thing to do. Makes me sick to my stomach.

Lowest of the low

No idea @Fairydust26 I've bought myself a large bottle of gin to calm myself down. I honestly want to kill them.

I'm trying to fight the erge to self harm tonight. I've already bought myself a lot of alcohol, so I'm probably already half way there.

Hi everyone please can I join? I'm really struggling with my anxiety at the moment it's kind of taking over

Do you do the elastic band trick Bippity? I don't do it myself i dont like it. I pinch myself instead. Hi hughjackmanswife. (No you're not, I am.)

I've done it before @Iblinkedandiamold (crisis team suggested it) and all I did was bruise my arm, because I was snapping it so much.

This year needs to do one. From start to finish it's been a shit show.

Started off in January getting hurled abuse, a&e twice, almost being sectioned, twice. Tearing a ligament in my knee, someone stealing my pram and to top it all off probably getting diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I actually think I'm going to lose the plot. Someone somewhere is testing my patience or has a voodoo doll of me somewhere.

I felt like that last year. I love Christmas but last year my DS put up the tree as I didn't want to.
I put the tree up yesterday but with a lump in my throat. DS always insisted on putting a tea in at the bottom of the tree I don't like it, thought as soon as he moves out I am never putting that thing around the bottom of my tree.
I put the train around the tree today. Too many memories attached to it. I am doing well with the whole adult child living his own life.

And my rosary beads broke as I brought them through to the living room for comfort. Well that set me off. Mixed with a lot of gin I had convinced myself I was a disciple and God had sent me here to test me and I thought there was an evil presence in my house that broke them to mock me.

My partner was at his mums and had to come and collect my DC. Then I broke down and cried for about an hour.