Hi,
I have reached my limit with what I can cope with, I'm actually done. Before it seemed to be a case of spinning plates and keeping them going, now I don't think I can manage one plate. I don't really know how to unpick it and being 'coping' again.
The last week felt pretty major for me. Prior to this I was ticking along juggling my disaster of my finances (I don't work, not that I won't or can't, it financially doesn't work out with childcare and hours. Finding another at home job is similar to finding hens teeth).
I've been finding my children quite exasperating, they have flitted between highly clingy, whining, demanding and being lovely. I am married but he isn't here when they are awake, closest family is an hour and a half away. The eldest doesn't nap anymore, so there is limited respite. I fill as much as possible into their waking day with groups, preschool and activities but I'm pretty shattered.
Over the course of the last 4/5 months I have found my mood swings to be unbearable, angry and aggressive. Having gone to the doctors last week it seems I have severe PMT, which I have been prescribed medication for but I don't think I can take as I'm still breastfeeding and a little bit reluctant to as I don't want to effect my child. But on the other hand, I don't particularly feel I'm a nice person when I have these mood swings.
Last week I was also told that my mum has cancer. I have spent most of the days feeling numb and in shock, through to denial.
How to I being to feel normal and coping again?