Am I losing it

[Ladycremer]

I will give a brief back story and whats wrong now. I have no idea if it's all connected.
I was abused as a child and married an abusive husband. I remarried a wonderful man and recently had 2 children. One is 2 one is almost 1. I've recently started to have headaches and a pressure in my neck. I'm tired and grouchy. The house is being renovated and the last birth was very traumatic and I had flash backs of my abuse. I've seen the dr and bloods all seem normal. Is it just a case of overload that I feel so wretched or could it be PND. Alot more going on but all could.be put down to tiredness. Ergh

Could be both. Go back to your GP. You've a lot on your plate with renovations and babies and dealing with your past. Understandable you're feeling this way.

Take care of yourself

Definately discuss with your GP and HV. Apparently it's very common for traumatic births to cause PTSD though often not picked up on by health professionals. It sounds as if at the least your birth experience was very triggering in relation to your previous history of abuse and trauma.