I'm a female and I have 4 kids 6,4,4,3months. I'm 25 years old will be 26 in 10 days. Every time I think about my age I think I don't want to die I don't want to leave my kids behind I don't want it to end. Everytime I think about it It feels like I'm going to have a panic attack and want to just ball my eyes out!!! [sad][shock][hmm]