a chat

[maddie04]

ive not been on here in years as i had the biggest mental breakdown and still trying to recover from it. I got diagnosed with bpd 4 years ago and the last few weeks have been really bad and i just dont know what to do anymore. I feel like people are fed up of my struggles.

Maddie,
Welcme to the good place.

Well that's me too. Diagnosed 4 years back although apparently it's been on my medical records for 20. I've in the midst of a crisis as well. So hello. Do stay.

Hi Maddie, welcome and hope you find it helpful being here.

thank you for your replies im not sure what im looking for guess i just needed to tell someone im struggling and dont know what to do. hope your all ok xxxx

feeling really suicidal tonight ....am i even allowed to write this and tell someone

Yes you are allowed to write that. I don't feel like the best person to advise you but will stay here until someone more qualified comes along. Keep talking to us Maddie.

You are allowed to write that. Can you access RL support? Do you have access to a crisis team? Are you safe at the moment? Are you alone?

i feel terrible for venting im just trying to stop myself

im alone and crisis are no use. My husband isnt speaking to me everything is really complicated.

Can you call the Samaritans? Have you spoke to crisis team? Any friend or family who could sit with you? Plan things to do until bedtime to keep you busy?

I hate the crisis team but if i need to phone i will i just know they will tell me to go to hospital or come out and i dont want that.

My only real support is hubby but he wont answer phone to me.
I will probably just go to sleep
I know its difficult to help me

He's not supporting you. If you really think you might harm yourself then you must call the crisis team.

i will try

I'm glad. Do come back if you need to chat.

please stay well