What happened to the mental health support village?

[sadandanxious]

I'm sure a while ago there was a thread running for mental health support - a sort of supportive village where we could all come and talk about our mental health worries or just general life and feel safe and supportive. I posted under a different name back then and can't seem to find it any more.

Does anyone else remember it or have I just imagined it? Either way, would anyone else be up for it? Perhaps a yurt would be a safer, more comfortable place than a village?

Hope you're feeling better Anxious, and that you're feeling warmer Joto.

I'm getting there.

Much warmer thanks but back to waking up.anxious - feel like I've had a massive step backwards. Oddly feel less weepy and low but got that old aching arms can't sleep feeling back and I don't like it one bit. I'm hoping it's down to my.hormones 😢😢😢

Hi all. Think I recognise some of you.
I got really upset about this as it seemed to be the route of my problem-- that my masks are so good no one ever thinks I need help, no one can see me screaming. That I was being abandoned and left to cope on my own with no help. I said she should come back at night and see me then. Yup, I so relate to this Ohfucks
Feeling safe means hospital is doing what it's supposed to, erinaceus. I was in just before Christmas.
Currently under CMHT but had a whole 3 appointments since discharged from crisis team in Jan. I am doing less shit better. Still suicidal thoughts but not all-consuming any more.
I needto help myself, but feeling a bit...lost. ..where to start.
Um. Sorry for rambling.

Thanks Broken11Girl

Hi guys - and broken11girl, reassuring its not just me.

So i've been in crisis just over a month now, and although have taken a couple of days off work and have been using up annual leave I've mostly been just trying to pretend to the world i'm fine, going in - and then taking it out on myself letter. Managed to get a phone consultation with the gp today, and long story short she's signed me off for four weeks.

which felt great, only realised that my contract is £4 short from being eligible for SSP - so no sick pay for me. and not entirely clear if i'll be eligible for ESA. Saw something that said it takes a year to apply?? boo.

I've had such a bad day, I was meant to be at work tonight but wasn't even able to call in sick, so I'm worried sick about how to hand in this fit note, because it means I have to go into work, and i might get 'told off' about today or asked difficult questions.

and then its about whether I can even afford to give myself a break - but I can't function at work, i'm just breaking down or freezing, i can't listen i'm so absorbed just stopping myself from doing or saying something harmful. And i'm so vulnerable. I don't know what to do.

Well, I think I was a bit anxious last night reading that back! Went into work and handed in my note this morning - no problems. They also key me know we're all being made redundant in a couple of months anyway. So feel less guilty about the personal cost.

How are you doing today Ohfucks and others? I'm doing okay today.

doing okay is good!

I'm a bit off at the moment - just feeling really vulnerable and heavy. I ran to the charity who run my therapy group this morning, they were lovely to let me in and just pace around their meeting room for a couple of hours, with tea and i had a nap on the floor - and they got a counsellor to talk to me down. lovely lovely people

Got home and had a bath, nice, then had a nap nice, picked up dd did family stuff. Was a bit silly and went to this gallery to see if they wanted to exhibit some of my work - they didn't. I'm doing some workshops with them, so thought they would be up for it. I'm not surprised at being rejected, it happens all the time - my works good, its just not what they need at the moment- but rejection hurts, even if i'm good at pretending it doesn't.

Am now hurt that DH has gone to bed early whilst i'm feeling naff.

But you know, i'm alive so yeah guess i'm okay :)

I didn't sleep much last night. Hoping for a better night tonight.

Feeling really low. Sleep is getting worse. Long for a real yurt. Loathe being on the ward. Waiting for a bed in the crisis house. Should be early next week.

In positive news, I have visitors often, and my concerntration is back so I can read and draw and stuff. Meds are being changed to something I have found helpful in the past. Just struggling massively, and tired of struggling.

Feeling much better now.

At the crisis house now. Cannot recommend an acute ward. Not fun. Bit intense.

Met some great people though, which tends to be the way. Glad that is over. Never again, but I do say that to myself every bloody time.

Hello yurtees. How is everyone today? I'm doing much better now, and so grateful for all the support over the past weeks. I felt understood on this thread. I feel as if I might have killed the thread by being so self-centred in my recent posts. I was not massively in a position to support other people at the time, and taking care of others at the expense of myself is one of my more problematic coping strategies(!). When I was in hospital I found myself trying to take care of the other patients until I caught myself doing it and made myself stop. I worried about them all a lot though; I worried about the staff as well. Fortunately the staff picked up on it and helped me to handle it. It's still a work in progress

Gah, mental health stuff it's exhausting stuff. I'm going for a haircut this afternoon though, and I love my hairdresser. Practicing self-care .

You didn't kill the thread at all - I've bee feeling a bit overwhelmed and finding it hard to post, but have been reading - glad to hear the crisis house is feeling good for you

Hi all. Thsnkscto a particularly hideous period I've dropped to an awful low and my anxiety is terrible. I look at how I was two weeks ago and I wonder where I went. Insomnia is awful and though I'm doing things the aching arms tingling chest and awful thoughts are there. I am not at work either and that's not helping! I got a new job nearer to home and have been stressed about this but I know it will be positive. I just feel scared of everything. Needing a fluffy yurt sleep 😊😊

Good to hear from you Ohfucks and Joto.

Sorry that you've been feeling overwhelmed Ohfucks. Hope that you feel better soon.

Joto sounds difficult. Hope you can find some peace here in the yurt.

Morning, I haven't been to the village for a while.
I had my own thread here as I really hit a low and was not having good thoughts. These come and go in waves now rather than stay with me all the time.
I've also been in the divorce/separation topic because that is the root cause of my issues.
I'm sorry some of you have dipped down again. I know that I passed a certain point and it's going to take a while to pull myself back up again. I'm not sure how I'm functioning to be honest. I think my lovely mum pulls me through each day and the thought of my dd keeps me going.
My mums 70 and I feel so bad that she is spending all her time on me and my problems, she should be enjoying her life.
Hope today is calm and peaceful for you all.

Hi knittedfrog and all other yurtees! I'm in the middle of Wales this morning and unless I think about being 3hrs from home I'm doing OK! Yesterday's journey down was stressful to say the least but I did it. I may wobble whilst on holiday but I'm not giving in to anxiety!!! It's exhausting but I'm accepting it now rather than fighting it. Not sure what to do today but at least the weather is good 😊😊

Have a great day Joto.
Breathe some of that lovely fresh Welsh air into your lungs! Hoping you enjoy yourself and can keep the anxiety at bay.

Thanks! Looking at doing a zipwire and going into a slate mine. It'll either kill or cure me 😂😂😂😂

Morning Yurtees ☀️

I've been up and down and feeling quiet about posting on here lately.

erin glad to hear you've moved to the crisis house, it sounds like a step forward, I hope you're doing ok today.

joto Wales sounds relaxing/slightly scary in equal measures! Definitely a good change from the usual routine in any case! Zip wiring and going down a mine might be difficult - imagine the sense of achievement when you do it though.

As for me, I increased my meds again to the max dose the psych assessment team said I could try - it knocked me for six and I spent a week as a barely functioning zombie, coming out the other side though. I've also finally met my new CBT therapist, and I think I like her. She seemed very understanding and on my level, not dismissive or patronising, listened and asked very insightful questions. I'm feeling quietly hopeful about working with her. I have another getting-to-know-you session in a few weeks, and then we've got a minimum of 2-3 more sessions planned before we will review if we think that the type/level of therapy that she can offer is right for me at this moment. I've been trying to not over face myself, concentrate on little things - gardening, yoga. I'm not really managing anything apart from getting through work and then sleeping a lot though. Still feel pretty overwhelmed and like I'm just failing at everything.

Today at least I have a day off work though. Planning on doing some gardening (sowing seeds indoors at least if the weather isn't up to being outdoors) and just spending time with DP who has had a rough few days as well. We might go out for a dinner/cinema date later perhaps.

Hope everyone else is having a peaceful bank holiday

Hi anxious glad youre bavk and feeling a little better. Zipwires and slate mines are easy compared to eating a full meal or takong a tablet without getting anxious! We're off to the seaside today and I love the sea so hope it relaxes me. Have a good day all xx

Morning yurtees!

Hope that you all had a good bank holiday.

Anxious yes the crisis house is definitely helping. I'm making good progress although not finding it easy at all. How was your day off?

Hi Joto zip wires and slate mines and seaside sounds adventurous. How did you get on?

Hi all! Seaside was good and today I went for a walk up a slate mine. That was a 4 mile round trip in the middle of nowhere with amazing scenery. I did have a couple of moments where i was anxious as a long way back but I pushed through it. I'm so proud of me 😊 zipwire tomorrow. Have to wear red jumpsuit though - It's not my colour 😁😁😁 as I said these are easy compared to getting anxious about taking meds. Hope you are all having a nice day xx

Hello all.
So glad Wales was a success for you Joto. Sounds like you pushed past anxieties and had a good time.
Anxious, sorry you've been up and down. Hope you got out to the cinema.
I've dipped again. Was getting things straight in my head and even had an exit plan when the inevitable happens and we lose the house. (He's still in denial). But looked into it further today and if I can get a rented for me and dd once everything is paid I literally won't have money for food. Entitled to no help either.
This was enough to set be back on a personal destructive road. Dd is definitely better off without me.