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zoo if you decide to reply to text (and you really don't need to) then I suggest "no I'm not ok, and won't be able to help with probate, hope you get it sorted soon" Learning to say no is hard but we need to do it to protect ourselves.

Hope everyone is okay today. I had visit from psychiatrist yesterday (no cancellation, hurray!) and he gave me a prescription for Olanzapine instead of Mirtazapine. It's a tricyclic antidepressant, and have less chance of weight gain than Mirtazapine, and should stop my crazy carb cravings.
Hopefully it will help my anxiety a lot, as I really need it. And hopefully it will allow me to lose some of this extra weight I have (a lot of).
He will also refer me to get some support, but was clear that I need to get a little bit better from anxiety first, so that I can actually manage to go to the appointments. I am a bit apprehensive to how I will manage to time childcare with it, but I will have to see how it goes.

All in all, I'm a happy bunny, but very anxious about starting new medication, especially after reading that an overdose would be very dangerous. I took an OD when I was 15, and it does not tempt to repeat, but I am still worried. Hopefully they will stop me from being so anxious, and I will have a low dose!

Hi purple Glad psychiatrist has kept the appointment. DH is on ozanzapine, can make you very drowsy and also he has put on a lot of weight, but maybe its not as bad as mirtazapine (which I've just started ) For him its for psychosis rather than anxiety, but he gets on well with it. When hes on the low dose it doesn't make him drowsy either. Glad that he has taken the time to listen and identify some help for you. Sounds like a really positive step forward

I've had a really nice day out with DH, but despite this have been struggling alot with anxiety and urges to self harm today.

Hope everyone else is ok.

I thought (was pretty sure that) olanzapine was an antipsychotic rather than an antidepressant. But generally the distinctions between medications are a bit false…they all just either sedate or stimulate….mirtazapine sedates as does olanzapine.

I am already on an antipsychotic (helps amazingly with my Tourettes), but found olanzapine listed under tricycling ad :) The psych said I was less likely to put on weight with them, and if i do then we will change to find other ones.

Thats good purple

I've had a very busy day today did a couple of hours volunteering, enjoyed it, but think I've overdone it. Definately not upto going back to work yet. In an exhausted shaky heap now, with a cat on my lap.

Ah jealous of the cat in lap carer!
Glad you enjoyed volunteering, hope you fee better tomorrow again!

We went to playgroup again today, and tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment, so that's all we will do for the day :p Stocked up on playdough and drawing things for some home fun!

Sounds good purple

Help :( I am terrified of taking my new pills! That are supposed to help my anxiety! Oh the irony..... Can someone reassure me please?

Hi purple how are you doing.? Have ypu taken theem yet. DH has never had any problems with olanzapine, appart frombsleeping a lot, but he's on a high dose. How much have they put you on?

75mg Carer, and no I haven't taken them yet. I got so stressed out about taking them, that I managed to give myself a migraine (normally stress induced). I also was given some to take 3 times a day if needed, when I am extra anxious. But am too scared to take those as well :( Don't know what to do...

How are you doing today?

Hi all, anxious I spotted you have just started mirtazapine - snap! How are you feeling on it? I'm wiped out. Hoping this is short-lived as back to work on Monday.

Does anyone else have any experience?

Oncemore I took mirtazapine for a year (took my last pill 2 days ago!) and I had to take them in the evening because I got very sleepy. For the rest of the day I felt fine once the initial side effects died down :) It can give carb/sugar cravings, so watch out for that!

I took my pills!!! woo

Where's everyone? How are you all? Makes me worry (surprise) :p have i said too much?

Hi purple not really sure where I was to be honest... but I'm ok thanks. Well done for taking pills, at the end of the day I'm sure your psychiatrist knows what hes doing prescribing them. Do you mean 7.5mg? I didn't think they made as high as 75mg? When DH was really poorly he was on 20mg which he doubled up to 40mg (unadvised) for a short while with no lasting ill effects, although the psychiatrist hastily prescibed an additional diazepam instead when she realised what he was doing. Looking online they sometimes combine olanzapine with 75mgflouoxitine though.

oncemore I take the Mirtazapine before bed and I sleep well. Off work at the moment so not had to try any early mornings yet. Having very vivid dreams which is a side effect, but mostly not unpleasant, just bizare.

pokes head around door

Any room for me? Changed from mitazapine to venlafaxine and olanzapine (7.5mg), and slowly increasing

Carer I checked again and it's definitely 75mg. Maybe they have changed it recently, or it's a different brand? I don't take fluxoetine (can't take SSRIs due to bad side effects) anymore, but it's combined with aripiprazole (sp) and lamotrigine.

Glad mirtazapine is okay for you, hopefully you won't feel so tired once you get used to it :)

Welcome Sunny! How are you?

Can I join the thread?

I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for at least 3 years. I've ignored it and tried to deal with it all myself without any medical help. I knew I needed to see a doctor but was always too scared.

Last week I finally got the courage to see my GP. A massive hurdle for me as anything medical sends me in to a panic.

She told me there wasn't anything wrong with me. Just a low mood which I could help by exercising, eating better and shopping (?)

I felt embarrassed to have taken up her time and got out of there quickly.

How can there be nothing wrong with me? I'm always on the edge of tears, have no motivation, feel panicky about normal things like being a passenger in the car or going to the shops on my own. I have panic attacks occasionally, and I'm constantly questioning. Someone was nice to me this morning and I blubbed like a baby.

It took me 3 years to get to the doctors, I can't do it again. Where do I go from here?

Welcolme sunny and cows

cows I would try another GP! Unfortunately there are still a few out there who are crap at MH, I mean shopping!? I bloody hate shopping and it seems to be more than likely to trigger a pannic attack at the moment too! She is right about the exercise though. Exercise releases the bodys natural antidepressants and can be really helpful.

Do any of the GPs at your practice have an interest in MH?

purple I wonder if its 75 because its combined with other meds.

I've had an odd day. Attempted some Christmas shopping. I save up my boots points to use at Christmas. Saw half price offer on a brands gift sets that also had the 3 for 2 stickers on, worked out how many I could get, took them to the till who then told me I couldn't use both offers. Pannicked, told her I didn't want any of then if not on both offers and walked out empty handed. Got home anxoous and shaky, realised that it was still a good deal and will prob go back and get them tomorrow anyway!

Another Welcome for Sunny and cows
Well done for taking your pills Purple...hope they are helping (or will at least)
anxious hopefully you'll be able to get them tomorrow -and you won't see that assistant again. I don't really have anxiety and in a similar situation I have just paid to not create a fuss and then realised it wasn't a good deal...so what you did was really the braver thing to do Especially as it is hard to think on your feet sometimes.

I'm still sort of up and down at the moment - despondency keeps lifting for an hour or so - then coming back with a vengeance. I am not getting half of what I should done - and I could, I have the time, just no energy. I also have a lot of stuff coming up that I should be thinking about/planning and I'm not...not sure if I will have the energy/resources to get everything done in a last minute panic (my ADHD normal way of doing things)...really quite worried.

I have survived an impromptu sleepover with a friend of DC2 (friend's parent had to go away) - I don't normally have sleepovers here cos DC1 (with ADHD) can get really hyper if something different is going on - be hard to keep under control - and an audience (other DCs) makes it more difficult - more likely to result in some face saving oppositional behaviour. However it was fine...DC1 usually doesn't like DC2s friends but decided they liked this one and we all had quite a nice time. We also ended up with another of DC2s friends for a couple of hours - with a bit of a cross over with sleepover guest - that was more difficult as DC1 doesn't like them and it was a bit awkward after the sleepover ...even though they all get on.
I was exhausted afterwards - the strain of being upbeat for so long along with extras like sorting bedding etc. I am just hoping the blackness lifts for longer blocks in the next few days.
cows you do need to pick up the energy to go back to the GP - try and see another one but if you can't go back to the one you saw. Could you take someone with you for moral support - also write down what you want to say - even print your post here...
Did you put your brave face on? If you did -don't. I was fine this time even with my brave face cos I have a history so was taken seriously.
However I have had (not MH) problems in the past and I learned that being brave just means you aren't taken seriously.
(The worst - long story and a long time ago (pre NHS 24) I phoned A&E for advice and they told me to get an ambulance in. On arrival I insisted on walking not being wheeled in - with a 'this isn't going to beat me' mentality -being brave. The Dr who (vaguely) examined me, gave me a lecture about how much money and time I'd wasted - there was nothing wrong with me - and sent me home. I was back the next day (in a taxi) haemorrhaging...)

I'mcracking, that sounds awful.
Can I have a moan please? People have moved into the flat next door to mine and they are noisy buggers. Music from six until after eleven on Friday. Music from eleven am until after eleven on Saturday. Music and loud tv since about four today. I have ear plugs in and can still hear it. Im quite noise sensitive and if this is how they are going to be all the time I can see myself going a bit dolally. Will miss the guy who lived there before, would never have music on for long periods or at late hours.

Hi everyone
Really been struggling. Kids didn't get taken school Thur n Fri as so panicky and down
Found hard even making them food
Will try again gp app tom.law averages says must get one eventually
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room are you super sensitive or is it really loud? Maybe you ask the council for advice -if it is loud. Or maybe it is cos they are still unpacking/sorting and when they have finished they will be quieter (fingers crossed)
zoo even if you can't get one tomorrow just make the next available appt - you can keep trying to get one sooner but at least you will have something - if you had made one last Mon you'd be being seen tomorrow.
You know if you can't get the DCs into school you'll get grief - and also having them around all day (probably bored and noisy) won't be helping either...at least when you have an appt you know you have taken a step towards getting the help you need.

Loud enough to still be heard with a decent set of ear plugs in. I know which agency let the flat and my contract has a no noise after ten clause. So will phone their agents tomorrow.

Hi Guys,

cracking I think its the thinking on my feet thing that threw my, my brain is just so slow at the moment. At least you are having the up times inbetween the downs, thats a positive. You can only do what you can do if things don't get done they don't get done. Maybe write a list in order of priority andcthen work through from top down so if you don't get things down they are the lower priority ones. Well done for surviving the sleepover .

101 That sounds awful, we have had problems with noisy neighbours in the past. You need to conract the council. Even if the house is privately rented or owned by the people living in it. Environmental health via the council should have a noise department. In our area there is a phone number to call if its noisy at night too andcthey send someone out to witness the noise for themselves as an independant witness. Also keep a log of times, dates, type of noise and the impact it is having on you as they will need this as evidence. They will likely start with a standard warning and if that doesn't work can progress to court to get a noise control order. If they contine the can then cofiscate the sterio, tv etc.

zoo sorry things are so tough. I think you could justify telling the GP you need an urgent/emergency appointment, nowvits got to the point you are struggling with the basics. Would DP do the school run? I also wonder if you talk to the school if theres any support they can access for you?

I've been to bodyballance this morning, but still feeling pants. Going to go swimming in a bit and then tackle christmas shopping again. Got joint CPN session with DH again tomorrow which I'm looking forward to.