When does it count as being suicidal?

[cantdothisanymore]

I don't want to panic anyone but I am wondering at what stage you are classed as suicidal.

I'm sorry. I realise I am just selfishly ranting about myself. You clearly have had difficult times too. Are you ok?

I'm a long way from any MNers, fussymummy but thank you

I'm ok thanks.
It's you i'm worried about.
How do you know you're a long way from all of us?
MNers are everywhere!!!!
Surely you must be near to one of us who could help in some way?
Do you have any medication to treat your depression?

I'm on Sertraline (Zoloft). I am just feeling worse and worse. I never expected to be looking at pro-suicide websites. They are scary. But I looked at them with a morbid fascination.

I think I just want to be looked after- if I hurt myself, I would have to go to hospital. It would give me a break. SOmeone would cook for me. SOmeone would listen to me. But they'd take DS away. I'd lose the only thing I do have. He used to make me so happy. Now, although I love him, I just feel as if nothing can make me happy. I do everything I can for him - I take him out, I make sure he's busy but only because I should. I love him and want him to be ok.

Iwas on those, but only for a short while.
I felt awful on them and had to change.
It's possible that they don't agree with you.
Or, if you haven't been on them for very long, maybe they haven't started working yet!

I think maybe it hasn't started working yet. I don't know. I just know I don't want to be like this any more. I don't know how safe I feel.

Why don't you call your GP out of hours service now?
You really need some help with this.
Do you have anyone with you?

I have a very close friend who had help from homestart.
They were brilliant.
She had tried suicide a couple of times and was mentally, a complete wreck.
She is now so pleased that her suicide attempts failed.
She's never been happier.
She now has a good job that she loves.
She never thought she'd be in a fit state to think about the next day, let alone return to work!

There is always support on here for you, just like jules99 has said.

Hi jules, are you ok?

Ok, the thing is (and if anyone is lurking and reads this they may know who I am) that I am not in the UK. I am in the middle of a custody battle. I cannot have on my medical records that I feel like this. I will lose DS.

I can't call my dr. They'll tell me to go to A&E and they'll either send me home again or hospitalise me. I can't do that.

I am alone. There is no-one who can help me. Thank you for all your suggestions though.

I am half thinking about calling the dr but I really can't.

I'm sure your DS wouldn't be taken away from you, just for asking for help!
This is serious and you really do need urgent treatment.
I understand why you can't say where you are.
How long before you get to the UK?

Where have you gone to?
We're worried about you, because we care.

I'm still here.

I don't have another name.

They will take DS away. Or at least make him live with his father. He's all I have. I don't want to lose him.

I will be in the UK in the summer. Then this will all be worse.

Jules, Are you sure you're ok? You said you had troubles yesterday.

Why will it be worse when you're here?

OK, this has to stop.

I didn't want to worry anyone. I started this thread because I wanted another opinion on whether I am a risk to myself or not. I can't decide. I didn't mean to suck people in and be so needy. I'm sorry.

Please, please don't worry. I can't do anything to myself. I don't even have a will. I need to sort out some practical things.

You should both be in bed. It's late.

I meant to say thank you. How rude. I'm sorry.

Thank you

Change your name to: iwillgetthroughthis

I'm off to bed in a short while as i have to be up early to take my girls dancing!!
If you want to CAT me anytime please do.

Take care of yourself as life is short enough as it is, without ending it early!!! Just remember your little one needs you as much as you need him xx