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Worried

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notfeelingsogood · 07/02/2007 19:04

I'm not feeling very good. At all. I don't know what to do. I'm a bit worried. I thought if I came on here it might help distract me and make me feel calmer...

I know no-one can help me. I just can't talk to anyone in real life - no-one knows I feel like this. I don't know how to make this feeling go away.

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2gorgeousboys · 07/02/2007 19:07

hugs Not sure what I can say but am here for you......

ShinyHappyPeopleHoldingHands · 07/02/2007 19:08

What are worried about NFSG?

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notfeelingsogood · 07/02/2007 19:10

I think I might do something silly. Well, I don't think I will but I can't stop thinking about it. I don't feel right.

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ShinyHappyPeopleHoldingHands · 07/02/2007 19:12

Do you suffer from depression? And people can help you NFSG. You just have to find it in yourself to ask. Have to put DD to bed now but people are here to chat so keep talking.

essbee · 07/02/2007 19:12

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frumpygrumpy · 07/02/2007 19:12

Find a way to get through the feeling. Can you go to bed? If you can sleep through it, or even just hide under the covers and allow all the thoughts to be there without going any further then you have won. Don't give in.

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notfeelingsogood · 07/02/2007 19:14

I can't go to bed. Yes, I'm on my own. That's why I came on here...

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essbee · 07/02/2007 19:16

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notfeelingsogood · 07/02/2007 19:18

Thanks for talking to me.

I'm on ADs & am having counselling. But I can't do it. I don't want to feel like this any more. I can't even do anything about it because of DC. I just want this feeling to pass now and I don't know how to make it go away.

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frumpygrumpy · 07/02/2007 19:20

OK so talk.........you have to give us something to let us in.........whats the worst thing?

I'm on my own and bathing my three and the clock is against me, but I'm nipping in and out...... talk honey, we're listening, you can say anything on here, really xxx.

mumtogusnalbie · 07/02/2007 19:22

Hi notfeellingsogood - I really am sorry to hear that you are feeling so helpless. My husband has tried to commit suicide twice in the last year and it is such a desparate situation to be in. You really are not thinking straight at the moment and when in the midst of depression it is really hard to see a way out. How long have you been taking the AD's and what are you taking? Where in the country are you - maybe other MNers could pop round to give you some company. How old are your children? Please keep chatting on here because it always helps me so will hopefully help you too.

frumpygrumpy · 07/02/2007 19:23

We can help. I have to run for the moment but I'm coming back......in half an hour. There is lots of help out here and many, many people on MN who have felt exactly the same. I have, and its gone now. I didn't give up. I always expect that I might fall down again at any time. But for now I'm strong and able to guide you..........

frumpygrumpy · 07/02/2007 19:24

Hang on honey. Its a rough path but one you will be strong for taking.

tootiredtotalk · 07/02/2007 19:24

HI. I feel like i might be able to help if you can let us in. I suffered from severe depression, anxiety attacks and am still on AD now. It all happened when i had my dd who is now 21 months old. I felt like i couldnt handle it anymore, and had lots of thoughts running through my head about ending it, etc. Can i help?

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notfeelingsogood · 07/02/2007 19:25

I can't say much - I'm a regular and if I give any details, it's easy to see who I am.

My problems aren't my problem today, iyswim - it's just this feeling. My arms tingle, I feel anxious but calm. I'm sinking. I have checked to see what painkillers I have and it scared me. I won't do anything but I am scared that I feel like this today. I need it to go away. I can't feel like this.

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essbee · 07/02/2007 19:25

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mumtogusnalbie · 07/02/2007 19:28

I have also suffered with depression and still have to fight the demons of panic attacks on a weekly basis but with the help of close friends and family I manage to cope with life as a single mother of 2 gorgeous boys. I have suffered panic attacks for 15 years and have been on AD's for the last 2. I also have diazepam for when I am feeling really bad. Do you have a good doctor? My current doctor has been the key to helping me grow stronger over the last 2 years - i have had several previous doctors who have been less than useless. If you are not happy with the treatment you are receiving currently then you could always ask to see someone else in the surgery.

tootiredtotalk · 07/02/2007 19:29

yes def consider going back to the GP. They can help. I know exactly what its like to have these thoughts. I remember having to give all knives, medication etc to my mum to keep as i just couldnt get the thoughts out of my head.....suddenly you will wake up and it will seem better than the previous day and day by day it will be better.....promise

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notfeelingsogood · 07/02/2007 19:31

mumtogusnalbie, I'm sorry you saw your husband go through this. I know it's awful to see someone like this. I hope he's ok now.

I've only been on the ADs for a few weeks so I know it's early days. I just feel worse today than I have done for years. There are no MNers near me. I don't think I need company.

I know things will get better but it's so hard, I just don't have the energy. I can't call my GP. If I do, they'll tell me to go to hospital and will take away DC. I can't risk that.

I just need this to go away. I'm sure I'll feel better in a while, I just don't know what to do while I wait it out.

Thank you all for your help. x

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mumtogusnalbie · 07/02/2007 19:32

what AD's are you taking - are you taking seroxat or paroxetine?

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notfeelingsogood · 07/02/2007 19:33

No, I'm not on either of those.

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mumtogusnalbie · 07/02/2007 19:34

my husband is still quite unwell but he is managing to function again now which is a vast improvement on this time last year. He turned to drink and drugs before he was prescribed AD's and tranquilisers. He is now off the d & d's thankfully but still living at his mums at the moment because I feel that i can not cope with him and two young children. Also did not think it was fair that the boys had to walk on eggshells all the time in case they upset him and he shouted at them.

essbee · 07/02/2007 19:36

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mumtogusnalbie · 07/02/2007 19:38

What makes you think that Social Services would take your children away - have they been involved previously? We had Social Services involved as my HV knew that my husband was taking drugs. I truly believe that removing children from their parent/s is the very last option and I don't think that just by going back to your doctor and telling him/her that you are feeling suicidal, Social Services will immediately take your children. Or that you will end up in hospital. We desparately wanted my husband to receive more help but even after his second suicide attempt, he still hasn't even had a psychiatric referral.

tootiredtotalk · 07/02/2007 19:39

Im on citalopram..They are great so if your on them, stick with it. Believe me one day you will wake up and feel so much better than the previous day and so on.