Aniexity depression worried about starting anti depressants :/

[mummynatty]

I struggle with anexity and they also say OCD and depression all come together I have two kids and I have tried counciling through nhs and didn't get on with it also had some counciling through my local children centre and had three session then she left but luckily found another councilor :) and meet up with her every week it helps talking and ranting to someone that doesn't know you was doing quite well until last weekend just everything getting on top of me so decided to go see doctor yesterday and they put me on anti depressants the sertraline meant to help with anxiety as well just worried about all side affects now :/ but I can't carry on feeling the way I do :/
Since my aniexity popped up again I have split up with my partner of three half years he got me through a lot of hard times and helped me out of a horrid relationship before and help me through everything to do with that , I feel bit lost don't know how to be myself anymore cause I've always had him to help me through hard places in the last few years and we've always got through together feel like I'm on my own through this don't get me wrong I have few friends that try there hardest to understand what I'm going through how I feel just not the same :/
Just want to here how people get through it or found anything that has helped

Clotted - sounds nice with the countryside... Happy you had a good day

Hi natty. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself? You're right, tv is rubbish tonight. I'm going to have a bath, then settle down with a hot chocolate and a book.

Hope you get a good nights sleep...
I have had som tummy trouble today (discomfort and diarrea)... Feeling a bit sad as well... But trying to think about how far I have come instead of the things I still can't do)...

Natty - what are you stressing about?

Sounds nice clotted with the hot chocholate

Yay we survived another day...almost! I'm finding I feel awful in the mornings, literally like its the end of the world, but then more normal as the day goes on. Anxiety - I'm a nurse and I really have to have my wits about me in the area I work...trouble is I don't at the moment and I'm nervous of making a mistake. Work have been great but we're a small team and I know it's problematic me not being there so I have that guilt as well. Natty hope you're ok. Clotted I've been fantasising today about packing it all in and moving to Cornwall...such a happy place for me x

Not really clotted just think and overthink about everything think I'm worring about tomorrow as got to get daughter to nursery and son wants to go swimming which I said we could do just worring that I'll struggle to get out door :/ and worring that soap that I put in kids bath will make them I'll or harm them :/ I've not put anything in soap :/
Does anyone ever find them self doing this: if your worried about something harming kids like food that your worried may have touched something etc and you have it your self? And once I remember my daughter sucking on one of those smell stick things you put your nose when you have blocked nose and I worried she was going to get ill or something worse so done it my self to make sure she'd be okay :/ hope that makes sense ?

Sorry to hear you've been having tummy troubles and feeling sad today anexity :/ yeah best to look at how far you've come and go day by day and baby steps I always need to remember that :) I struggle with that haha

Yes we did ginger :)
Do you take tablet in morning as maybe you feel awful in the morning cause I was told by a doctor that the sertraline stays in your body for 16 hours :) what awful do you feel? Maybe it's because the tablet has worn off by the time you get up in morning :) I always feel worse in evening like now I think it's cause getting kids to bed then start stressing and worrying about the next day :/

Is Cornwall your fav place ginger? Where about a in Cornwall :)

Natty: thank you... My tummy is upset and I have some nausia as well... Just hope it is not related to Sertraline... As the nausia I had Real bas in the beginning had went away... But now I am not sure if it has come back....
About worrying - when my children were small I really used to overthink about what would happen if I droped some tablets/medicine on the floor... Eventhough I knew I had not droped anything I would really worry....

Real bad

Natty - I really hope you are able to go swimming with your son that would be nice

I usally feel the worst in the morning...

Ginger I am a nurse as well - so can relate - but try to Think about your recovery instead of feeling guilty

I hope you feel better after a sleep anexity :)

Yeah I know I'm always asking myself if I did this or something :/

Any ideas how to get my daughter to stay in bed lol all she wants to do is be with me but I need her to go sleep so I can get sorted to go bed too :/
I left her in room with gate shut and she decided to find wet wipes and empty a whole new packet out :/

My son wants my auntie go now so she's picking us up tomorrow :) so that takes some stress off :)

You can't do anything but keep putting her back into bed. And telling her it is sleeping time. That age can be difficult

Nice of auntie

In bed now thinking of sleeping... Boyfriend is really sweet everyday... That is such a Big help...

Yeah she's seems to have settled down now gives me time to sit and chill for bit then have bath and bed :) hopefully earlier then last few nights :) that's good then :)

Sleep well all

You too :) xxxxx

Morning all

Morning :) not feeling too good today really anxious :/ and got tummy ache because of it :/ xxxxxxx

Same here Natty, I've got a really upset stomach today and feel dreadful 😟 getting fed up of this now, I'm desperate to feel better. Think people are bored of me and can't understand why I can't just "pull myself together". I wish it was that easy.
Anxiety you are very lucky to have a supportive BF...I thought mine was the same but he ended it when I needed him the most which is very out of character or maybe I just didn't know him. He has also been devastated by the death of our friend so not sure if that has something to do with it. Either way he's not here for me or my daughter.
Hope everyone else is ok today

Aw sorry to hear you've got upset tummy ginger :/ hope you feel better later :) feel a little better just dropped daughter to nursery :) hopefully tomorrow will be bit better as got to take them both to school and nursery tomorrow :/ that's sounds like some of my family and friends telling me to just pull myself together :/ and yeah my boyfriend left me about a year ago and still hurts as that's when my anexity got really bed and he says he's there for me but just feel like she's pulled away he still has our daughter so I can't complain :) just miss him but just have to get on with it and I really want to show him what he's missing but just lost myself with the anexity :/ so sorry :/

You've just hit the nail on the head there - I've lost myself, that's how I feel totally x

Yeah I was so happy and didn't give a care and felt on top of the world :) and felt so loved and I never worried like I do now :/