Aniexity depression worried about starting anti depressants :/

[mummynatty]

I struggle with anexity and they also say OCD and depression all come together I have two kids and I have tried counciling through nhs and didn't get on with it also had some counciling through my local children centre and had three session then she left but luckily found another councilor :) and meet up with her every week it helps talking and ranting to someone that doesn't know you was doing quite well until last weekend just everything getting on top of me so decided to go see doctor yesterday and they put me on anti depressants the sertraline meant to help with anxiety as well just worried about all side affects now :/ but I can't carry on feeling the way I do :/
Since my aniexity popped up again I have split up with my partner of three half years he got me through a lot of hard times and helped me out of a horrid relationship before and help me through everything to do with that , I feel bit lost don't know how to be myself anymore cause I've always had him to help me through hard places in the last few years and we've always got through together feel like I'm on my own through this don't get me wrong I have few friends that try there hardest to understand what I'm going through how I feel just not the same :/
Just want to here how people get through it or found anything that has helped

Aw sorry to here your struggling anexity :/ just need to hope we get a good pm that'll doing the best for the country :) and means we'll be able to vote for how everything done in the country now :)
I know how you feel worrying about it as I worried about tersiot attacks but we can't do anything just need to hope the right people look after are needs and protect us :)

It's raining here this morning but sun trying to come out hoping so can get more washing done and out as hate having it hanging up round house

Should think my doctors going to talk to me about it when I go to see her next week anexity :) I'll let you all know :) xxxx but should think they have to wait for 4-6 weeks to give tablets full time to work fully

I'm a bit worried I won't know if it's worked scaryed might think I'm feeling better and it just me thinking I should and not tablets

Aw I know yeah I went through stage of dropping kids of where they needed p go come home and lazy in front of to and eat and makes you even more tried :/

I just took my 6th tablet and put it in my mouth but when i swallowed it didnt actually go down & it all kind of dissolved into a mush in my mouth tasted RANCID
I'm going to try and get a shop done today and go visit my granny and grandad for a bit. The weather here just turned horrible pouring with rain and really gloomy :( not doing much to help my spirits lol.
Thats what im worried about too Natty that i'll feel better but i'll just happen to be seeing the doctor on a good day etc rather than the tablets working! I wish i was further down the road so I could tell if these were going to work for me, i'm not even a week in yet :(

I like the rain when I am inside and can hear it faling Down hard outside... But like the Sun as well

I have a picture of you all in my head... Kind of funny as you all migth be completly different than what I imagine

Will now go out an jump on our trampoline 5 minuts

Haha i'm the same Anxiety about having a picture of you all in my head :) enjoy the trampoline!! Sounds like good fun & the endorphins are good and all that

I know what you mean lilac I have to crush my tablets and sometime can taste it in yogurt yuk haha that'll be nice good luck hope goes well and you enjoy your day and don't get too wet :) yeah I get same the sun makes you happy even if you are having a wobbly day but rain makes mood worse :/ yeah I'll prob end up talking o doctor about that lol I ask so many question and have to double check what people say to me :/ aw I was like that but I'm near two weeks in now :) so keep going were all here for you :)
You all sounds like we'd really get on if we where closer haha :) your my kind of people I'd get on with lol :) have fun on trampoline anexity :) xxxxx

I antibacterial the life out of everything. I just worry that I've put dirty clothes in the machine so I've touched the handle and the buttons then I don't see them as clean but no amount of cleaning the outside of it will be sufficient enough to get rid of the germs. There's a few things in my house people are better off just not touching then I know I won't have to scrub the life out of my home. I could have shares in bloody anti bacterial products. My water bill was high so paying big time on direct debit each month.

My tablets are in capsules and I have to take 5 of them, think I drink about a gallon of water just to get them down!

Do you have OCD star girl?
Yeah bets nobody touchs as make you feel worse :/ you have to do it cause I think someone else won't do it properly :/ aw not good :/

What tablets you on? Why you taking 5? Would hate to have to take that much :/

Feeling low and anxious today

Sorry to hear that anxiety do you know why your feeling like that? Or just do?

Just do I think... My overthinking is back today... Can't get my thoughts to stop...

Aw I hate those days just want to hide and cry :/ I'm feeling okay today not stressing too much jut moved bedrooms round as daughter doesn't go to bed very easier in bedroom with her brother so going to try her in my room for bit so had to move all stuff so she can't get at anything she shouldn't had to hide things lol but all done now just living room messy now lol

Im feeling anxious too Anxiety :/ overthinking is the story of my life

Did you get to see your granny and grandad and any shopping done?

Yeah Natty just left my granny and grandads there. Going to go back home and have something to eat, have a cuppa and sit in front of the TV with my dog. simple pleasures.
What have you all been up to?

Sounds good just sat down with some toast and watching Netflix :) been tidying and moving stuff around

The suns just come out here I feel like I should go for a walk or something even though i cant really be bothered :/ lol

Big time ocd! You are right no one else's cleaning is good enough, so I do bloody everything. I take 5 as they only come in 50mg and I'm on 250mg.

Chucking it down this end and got to pick up ds from pre school :(

I went for a walk earlier... Rested and have just pulled up a bunch of weeds (spelling?) in the garden... It is really hot here now...