To think my family is better of without me?

[TerriHatchet]

Posted a few days ago about my pnd. Cried all day today and even thought about running away and starting a new life , my dd and Dp would be happier without me. I am a rubbish mum and even worse partner.

Yay, well done!

That's great news, the antidepressants should help you a lot when they kick in. It's good you've been given a number for counselling too. Well done Terri & good luck with your recovery

Well done, that was very brave.

Remember, the medicine will take a week or two to really kick in. Please ring the number you were given.
I'm glad you took the first step.

I am going to phone in the morning, feelings positive tonight which is such a rare thing for me!

Well done, Terri

Just caught up, brilliant that you have been to the GP & got meds.
Be very proud of yourself.

Today has been a bit up and down. Had a final reminder in from my electricity company, the council tax is due today and u owe £200 to the guy who fixed my car. Money worries are my biggest stress so am feeling anxious and my chest is so tight, I am trying to breathe and keep calm but I feel so stressed out right now

Can you talk to your partner about it? A problem shared and all that...

Both the electric and the council tax should be really understanding. They just want their money, if you don't have it now, they should be quite happy to have it on payday or over a few paydays if you need to. The important thing is to ring them up and explain how much you can pay and when from and how often. If you can't face it, write down the details for your dp or a friend and get them to have the actual conversation. You'll have to give your consent on the phone for that person to speak for you though. Once you've done that it's off your mind and you can stop dreading the post/phone!

Did you manage to ring the helpline OP? Great advice from Snooze, make sure you keep talking.
Hope your DD is feeling better