To think my family is better of without me?

[TerriHatchet]

Posted a few days ago about my pnd. Cried all day today and even thought about running away and starting a new life , my dd and Dp would be happier without me. I am a rubbish mum and even worse partner.

[TheDisreputableDog]

Did you manage to ring the helpline OP? Great advice from Snooze, make sure you keep talking.
Hope your DD is feeling better

[SnoozeButtonAbuser]

Both the electric and the council tax should be really understanding. They just want their money, if you don't have it now, they should be quite happy to have it on payday or over a few paydays if you need to. The important thing is to ring them up and explain how much you can pay and when from and how often. If you can't face it, write down the details for your dp or a friend and get them to have the actual conversation. You'll have to give your consent on the phone for that person to speak for you though. Once you've done that it's off your mind and you can stop dreading the post/phone!

[CharlotteCollins]

Can you talk to your partner about it? A problem shared and all that...

[TerriHatchet]

Today has been a bit up and down. Had a final reminder in from my electricity company, the council tax is due today and u owe £200 to the guy who fixed my car. Money worries are my biggest stress so am feeling anxious and my chest is so tight, I am trying to breathe and keep calm but I feel so stressed out right now

[FannyFifer]

Just caught up, brilliant that you have been to the GP & got meds.
Be very proud of yourself.

[SuckingEggs]

Well done, Terri

[TerriHatchet]

I am going to phone in the morning, feelings positive tonight which is such a rare thing for me!

[Libitina]

Remember, the medicine will take a week or two to really kick in. Please ring the number you were given.
I'm glad you took the first step.

[Buzzardbird]

Well done, that was very brave.

[IWasBeingAffable]

That's great news, the antidepressants should help you a lot when they kick in. It's good you've been given a number for counselling too. Well done Terri & good luck with your recovery

[SnoozeButtonAbuser]

Yay, well done!

[TerriHatchet]

I already feel a bit better just knowing that I have told somebody how I feel and that I am now on the (possibly long) road to recovery.

[2nds]

I'm glad to see you've spoken to a doctor Terri, well done for taking the first steps :-)

[TerriHatchet]

Hi everyone, appointment went ok, I burst into tears the minute I sat down. The dr prescribed me anti depressants which I have started today and gave a number to phone to receive some counselling

[TheDisreputableDog]

Hope your appointment went okay Terri, well done for getting some help.
Also, hope your DD is better today

[SnoozeButtonAbuser]

How did it go Terri?

[SnoozeButtonAbuser]

Xandra If you turn up at a psychologist's office displaying clear signs of PND, you'll get advised to get treatment for PND, just like you would at a GP's office. I don't think you can talk your way out of PND, or if you can it's probably alongside some medical treatment, not instead of. More importantly, if you ever feel the need to start a sentence "don't feel insulted but..." then maybe you should think a bit harder about the sentence you're about to say, especially if someone's feeling a bit fragile.

[xandra588]

Please do not feel insulted in what I have to say. I think you need professional help. I'm not talking about psychos who are going to brainwash you into some "life is perfect" shit. You might want to do couple of sessions with a professional psychologist. Maybe you should go with your DP. I bet you're keeping all those emotions a secret. Sometimes it's better not to kiss and tell, but most of the times you need to talk to your dp.
xo
~Xandra

[2nds]

It gets better, I'm a mum to a 3 year old annd a nearly 2 year old, honestly if you have spent the day washing clothes and cleaning up sick you aren't the worst mum.
:-) go talk to someone, maybe you could get some help from sure start or some other organisation?
When I had my first daughter and wad preggo with my second child I had an offer of help from the hvs which I declined. Speak to your GP or HV, there may well be help for you.

[SuckingEggs]

Hope you're ok OP

[nagsandovalballs]

Be honest. Don't minimise. Literally thousands of women go through this. A good doctor will take you seriously. If they don't, then it is not you or that your problems are unimportant or insignificant, it is a shit doctor.

. Don't be scared - you can do this.

[crankyblob]

I was diagnosed with PND after a year too. Even I did not see the warning signs until I had a full on breakdown. Looking back the signs were all there! - constantly putting myself down, telling myself I was worthless and DD was better off without me. That was 13 years ago now and I have gone on to have 4 more children.

Life is wonderful and I am glad I got help. I promise you, it gets better. The first step is the biggest.

[TerriHatchet]

5 minutes til my appointment I feel sick with nerves!

[SnoozeButtonAbuser]

Yes, it's not just a newborn thing. Don't worry if you cry, tbh that probably just helps with their diagnosis! For me, they gave me anti-depressants which took a week or two to help but they really did make me feel like myself again once they kicked in.

[TerriHatchet]

Snooze so yours was diagnosed after one year aswell? That makes me feel better, I was thinking it might not be pnd as she is not a newborn anymore. I'm sitting in the surgery just now, i am a bag of nerves feel all sweaty and shaky.
What if I just burst into tears