Every day we and others force ourselves to stay alive, and at the end of the day for what? Why can't people just let us go and do whatever it is we want. They say it will get better, we are ill, but it doesn't. Why do we force ourselves to put up with this shit life just because others tell us to?
I get about the people left behind but if I am only existing, like a zombie, what good is that to anyone? Isn't there just the constant worry of what I 'might' do rather than a known effect of me no longer being around?
Really struggling this evening and really just want to take off and leave it all behind ....