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Mental health

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I want to kill myself :(

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SandraDeeIsBack · 28/04/2016 15:22

I want to kill myself. I don;t think I will but I really want to. Is there anywhere in south London who can give me a hug and tell me everything will be ok, I'm a complete fuck-up and I just want to get off this earth, I just don't care anymore, I want to die

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WhyCantIuseTheNameIWant · 28/04/2016 15:24

I'm not in London, but I can send a hug. And a listening ear.

I don't know if it will all work out ok, but neither will you if you don't try.

Death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

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SandraDeeIsBack · 28/04/2016 15:25

Thanks. I know but there is nothing worth living for... everythings a mess, at least with death there is no more pain and worry and pressure and sadness and upset.

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SandraDeeIsBack · 28/04/2016 15:25

I just wanted to be perfect :(

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whatevva · 28/04/2016 15:30

I can send you a hug too.

My life is falling around my ears at the moment and I cannot see what else there is for me, or whether I want to go on. But I have been there before, so I know it will get better. Somehow. It will for you too.

Tate15 · 28/04/2016 15:31

Perfect for what?

We are all perfectly imperfect.

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SandraDeeIsBack · 28/04/2016 15:34

Perfect for myself, I cant do it anymore, my life is so easy and im so awful, im lazy and disgusting and i just cant do it, whats the point

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StuRedman · 28/04/2016 15:36

You can do this. I had a failed suicide attempt last week and today I feel completely differently about it. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and I promise you won't always feel like this.

Do you have a cpn? Call them if so. If not you can always turn up at a and e and they WILL help you. Or call someone.

dailyfailrag · 28/04/2016 15:39

I can't really offer any advice except to say please don't kill yourself. The effect on the lives that you leave behind will be immense.

The Samaritans are really helpful. Consider giving them a call on 116 123.

WhyCantIuseTheNameIWant · 28/04/2016 15:42

Go out somewhere where there are people walking about.

Watch them. They are all different. And not one of them is perfect.

I'll throw my imperfections up now.

I am still limping from a hurt ankle.
My tummy is too big. And looks awful in these warm track pants.

My hair is going white.
And needs a cut.

ClaudiaApfelstrudel · 28/04/2016 15:42

hang in there!, as John Lennon said 'things will be ok in the end, if things are not ok, it's because it's not the end'

Cinnamon2013 · 28/04/2016 15:43

Would it help to talk more about what has brought you to this point?

Whatever your life may seem like from the outside it's not easy, and you're not lazy - it's tremendously hard to live each day carrying feelings like this.

You are stronger than you know.

Cinnamon2013 · 28/04/2016 15:45

And as for perfect... There are better things in life to be than perfect, and I bet you are many of them.

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BeccaMumsnet · 28/04/2016 15:46

Hello SandraDeeIsBack, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - here. You can also go to the Samaritans' website here, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.

ElizabethLemon · 28/04/2016 15:49

Whereabouts are you op? If you really feel like you want to harm yourself go to Kings or contact the Maudsley.

WolfMoon · 28/04/2016 15:50

Oh lovely, I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. Also sending you a hug.

Would you like to talk about things? We're all here listening if you want us to.

mylaptopismylapdog · 28/04/2016 16:00

Been there many times and jolly glad I have never acted on it. You have the sense to reach out and ask for support, my guess is if you were feeling better you would be one of the first to offer it.
I have been a support volunteer at the Samaritans and I know there are good listening ears there for you if you need them at any time.
If you think about it if someone really was perfect would they be likeable? The most intriguing things about people is they are individuals.
Sending you a big hug.

Marj1978 · 28/04/2016 16:03

As for being 'lazy', to get up each day and do as much as run a comb through your hair or get dressed and washed is a huge achievement. Everything seems like a mountain to climb. Much love. Keep talking xx

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