please give me some advice on AD's

[scribbles1980]

Depressed now since November. Life really getting me down. I don't feel suicidal but just want to run away.
No enjoyment in life at all.
Back to the doctors on Monday. Thinking of asking for ads .
I'm frightened after reading that they can make you feel worse & side effects.
Please can anyone share your positive stories.
Thanks

[scribbles1980]

sazerashez thank you.
I won't drink as i want to feel the full benefit.
I was beating myself up earlier thinking why I didn't start taking the meds earlier. I might be feeling better by know.
My children are so lovely & deserve so much better.

[sazerashez]

No. You deserve so much better. Yes they will benefit from a happy mum but you owe it to yourself first and foremost. You shouldn't have to feel this way.

Take comfort from the fact that you have now put yourself in the hands of something that will help you. Just be really kind to yourself, I know that's easier said than done. I'm really looking forward to hearing about you feeling better. Just having taken the first step of taking them might even boost your mood soon.

[scribbles1980]

Yes, you are right. I do feel more hopeful about the future. Haven't felt hopeful in a long time.
Thanks for all your support.

[sazerashez]

The only way is up from here I reckon!

[tryandtryagain]

Sending love scribbles. Keep on keeping on

[Barbie1]

Good morning from the Middle East scribbles.

I'm glad you have started them...please don't beat yourself up over this coming week. You might feel spaced out and start to question yourself, you might get other side effects but they settle. My first three days weren't pretty but it passed and you should start feeling the more positive effects soon. Keep posting, we are listening

[2LittleMonkeysJumpingOnMyHead]

I took citalopram a few years ago and there was definitely a period of feeling a little worse but then it was like a switch was flicked and I could function again, like a normal person. Be kind to yourself for the next week.

[sazerashez]

How was your sleep? How are you feeling today?

[scribbles1980]

Good morning
Well, I slept really well, have only just got up!
I did dream but it wasn't unpleasant.
I do think I am doing the right thing. This is the first morning I have woken up and not wanted to cry.
I don't think it is the meds working yet. But I have hope that things will get better.
Thank you all so much with your positive stories. You have really really helped me.

[scribbles1980]

Oh and thank you for caring

[sazerashez]

Oh that's great. I'm really pleased! I also felt instantly better mentally. Like I said, just the act of putting yourself in the hands of something that can help you rather than chasing your tail is a massive boost. Lucky you for sleeping! You might actually end up avoiding any side effects if that's anything to go by.

[2LittleMonkeysJumpingOnMyHead]

Great news you feel a little better :)

[scribbles1980]

Couldn't sleep last night. Don't think it was the meds probably the fact that I slept so much the day before.
Still have that can't be bothered feeling.
Feeling guilty that I haven't done anything with the children.
Although DD has been feeling ill so a bit stuck.
My appetite has dropped a lot . This is a good thing as I did tend to binge eat.
Haven't got much energy though. How long do you think it will take to start making a difference?

[MerryMarigold]

It takes a couple of weeks, maybe a month for me. I still have low energy after 1.5 months, but to be honest boy started the better eating or exercise, but definitely less miserable and overwhelmed. Today I did a snack job in house which had been waiting for several weeks. It took 5mins but is been putting it off because it required a screwdriver!

[MerryMarigold]

Small job, doh!

[sazerashez]

I'm at the same stage as merry and it was the same for me. 2/3 weeks to notice a marked difference. I got my energy back after about a month. I can relate to that small job thing merry! I do stuff I previously couldn't be arsed to do like book dentist appointments.

[scribbles1980]

Thank you Merry & sazerashez
Guess I have just got to stick with it. Just so fed up of feeling like this.

[scribbles1980]

Feeling quite anxious today too

[mopants]

You need to stick with it. It won't happen overnight. How are you doing with side effects? Just trust that they are helping, but will take a little time

[scribbles1980]

Don't seem to be suffering much with side effects mopants.
Although feeling a bit more anxious today.
Could just be that I have a ton of stuff to do & no energy to do it.
Feeling guilty that I haven't done anything with the children. Most of their friends are away on beautiful holidays

[mopants]

I gave all of mine a cloth this morning and they've cleaned my dining room table chairs doors and door frames and floor. Most people don't go away on lovely holidays all the time. You're not failing them by staying at home. I know weather is crap today but I'm considering (although probably won't) putting baby in sling and wellies on the rest and taking them all out for a walk then home for hot chocolate and biscuits. Nice and easy and get a bit of fresh air too

[scribbles1980]

I know mopants just feeling slightly sorry for myself.
That sounds like a nice day.
My DH is home today (could be why I am a little bit more anxious ).
He is going to take them out this afternoon. So I may tackle the ironing.
Can't face going out. Enjoy your walk

[mopants]

I am always more on edge when OH is off work. Don't know why though. Don't do the ironing, have a rest!!! Enjoy a little bit of time to sit in your favourite chair by yourself with a cup of tea and some cake and read (if you read) or stare into space (if you like staring into space). You can start the ironing after you finish your cuppa!

[scribbles1980]

Bad day today.
Haven't got anything done at all. Just lying on bed.
Was feeling quite optimistic yesterday. But kind of crashed today.
This is shit.

[mopants]

Depression is shit. But you are on the right path to feeling better. It isn't easy but you will get there