Never felt this bad

[horacemorris]

I am in terrible turmoil. It's my own fault. Neglecting my responsibilities has lead to this so I can't blame anyone else. No one to talk to in rl. I wish I had a time machine and could do things differently. No malice was ever meant. I don't know how to deal with it and don't feel strong enough to give any more details. Just hoping writing it down might help. If I try to rectify what I have done it will lead to even more trouble. Please Lord help me

Pitying not putting.

I feel pretty much every word you've said. If you want to talk here, I'm real .

Hi Goingtobe. It's shit isn't it? Sorry you are still struggling . I feel so jealous looking at everyone else and the fact that no one will know how bad I feel. How's things with you?

I am lay in bed and just cannot bring myself to get up and do anything.

Lots of people feel as rubbish as we do, they just don't show it for numerous reasons. Neither is wrong. I'm keeping busy. Lasagne on the hob, rice pudding in the oven, washing in the drier, will do some housework soon. Just claiming every minute I'm still here and not hurting myself, or setting myself up to be, as a win.

Have you something you can do to look forward too today? Just something that makes you feel happy for a while. It's just small steps..