How to get through the next 2 weeks?

[willowcatkin111]

Christmas is always a stressful time but worse this year as family 'expect' me to spend it with my (narcissistic) mother. Have not spoken to her for over 8 months, why do they think I can start now?!
Really worried that things will get too much and I will end up back at A&E; have just rebooked a trip for me and dsaid on boxing day that we missed 2 months ago as I was in hospital so am desperate to get there this time...

If you're worried about how you'll cope, what would happen if you don't go to see her?

Not going is not an option . The dcs have arranged for her to come to our house for xmas morning then they are cooking Xmas dinner at hers and I am expected to join in. Both will be very disappointed if I do not 'play along' as they put it.