SPRINGTIME in the VILLAGE (Support for all Mental Health Issues)

[NanaNina]

Thought I'd start a new thread what with it being the Spring Equinox and all that..........and there's another reason. I'm hoping to re-connect with people who used to be frequent village visitors, but like me, seem to have fallen by the wayside. Of course everyone is welcome in the Village, so I hope more recent visitors understand my post and will not feel de-valued in any way. The stigma of mental illness is alive and well I reckon so we all need all the support we can get.

SO - CALLING

Vicar (she started the Village thread some years ago and occasionally pops in) Edwinia'sRevenge SnowyMouse (where ARE you?) SilveryPussyCat CIQ (I know you were having a tough time) Lem (once a very regular visitor) Hoochymama Pyrrghena collardove Victrix Pulled Creamhearts (previously FDG) MentalPsychiatrist KeemaNaanAndCurryOn (miss you and your wit)
FaithLoveandGrace MySpideySenseTickles

Would love to hear how you're all doing. I'm much the same, up and down, mostly down this month.

I've probably forgotten lots of people, but that's all I can bring to mind just now.

Oh no LEM

Hi CIQ it's awful news isn't it - there's a thread her husband started "Extremely sad news to share" - I know you're struggling at the moment as I lurk on the thread, as so many of us are.............

Awful day. I can't win. Do i go to party & feel miserable or stay at home & feel more isolated than i already do?

north ive nothing to suggest but hope you make a decision that doesn't make you feel worse. Sorry for rubbish reply. Maybe someone else can offer some useful advice!

Depends. If you are going to feel worse not going then go but if you can just relax and destress somehow (Im thinking chocolate, dvd session etc maybe) then stay home. Do what is going to be best for you right now.

north I've got the same dilema I've wrapped the presents and got mine/DD/DH outfits out. I don't care much for not attending but I really don't wanna deal with the fall out afterwards. So I'm just thinking of putting on a brave face and going. I just don't know if I can be me enough at the party IYSWIM.

(( thank you ))
I have agreed to go for an hour. But i think they want to give me a present & say thank you. I'm dreading it & i've already been i tears - i'm physically shaking x

I totally get what you mean Pulled I hope you will be ok. I've gone into full overdrive & mega glammed up. It's like body armour - lets hope no one touches me as they'll feel me shake.

I keep thinking of my new tattoo. Like a phoenix. I will rise x

May I join you all? I'm back under the crisis care team as of yesterday. New area as we moved a couple of months ago, and they seem very on-the-ball.

They've upped my quetiapine and given me diazepam short-term.

I have had 2 hospital stays in the past and involvement with the home treAtment team. They seem quite keen for me to go into hospital again, but it's not going to be forced on me as of yet. They acknowledge that if I do go in it will be for 'respite' from the kids rather than active treatment of any kind. Which seems weird when they are supposed to be so overstretched resource wise.

Hope to get to know you guys.

Of course TWRP welcome.

How did it go North?

Hey mythical - it was fine. I feel like it's a small victory against my anxiety. I survived & with no tears. It took a lot to get me there. It's done.
I've left early, my counsellor would be proud. I stayed for over an hour.

Pulled - hope all ok at the party x

Oh yes, welcome TRPP - the village is a safe place to be. I hope you find as much support here as i have x

Thats absolutely brilliant North! Well done. It is a big victory against anxiety.

Thanks Mythical. I really appreciate your support x

Hi north so glad you had a good time my evening went better than expected at the party. Dare I say it I think I even enjoyed it. All was not to be though as on the way home me & DH had an argument. I couldn't quite follow the conversation and that bought an onslaught of derogatory comments from him. He absolutely missed the point of what it took for me to be "normal" today. I know in a manner of speaking everyone around me has been suffering with me for the past few years but it's not like I do it on purpose! Now I'm too upset to go to sleep though am exhausted.

Welcome TWRP

Welcome twrp this is a lovely supportive thread. Hope you find it helpful.
Well about to go to bed. Another busy day. Dh busy prepping for his df funeral on mon so me and kids today. Dh unsurprisingly sad this eve. Me: tired. As ever.

Take care all x

Oh ((( ciq ))) thinking of u all and hope all goes well

Thanks pulled. Feel bad feeling sorry for myself - not like my df has died. It's just been a long year

Pulled - focus on the achievement of the party & that you enjoyed it. Whatever your Dh's issues were, don't detract from the effort i know it took to go.
Maybe talk to him today?

Well done Pulled too. Agree with North, you did really well so focus on that bit.

If I have a good day my family sometimes think that things can go back to 'normal' but it doesn't work like that. one day can be ok and the next rubbish.

Well done pulled it must have taken a lot to go to the party.
((Ciq)) thinking of you.

Sorry to only check in here. Horrible, horrible day. Have been crying constantly since I got up, too exhausted to do anything and just very run down.

Friend has got dd. Was meant to bring back an hour ago but am guessing she's keeping her to give me some peace. I've been having flashbacks to when dd's Dad died. Really very difficult day for me today.
My anti depressants have been upped but don't seem to be getting rid of the crying jags. My GP said to go back so I guess that's going to be my next plan.

Just don't know what to do with myself. Over tired and overwhelmed.

Thanks for the welcomes.

Have been having a quick read back but think I'll have to start from here getting to know your stories.

I've just had HTT out for another pointless chat. They said 4-6 they may come, but by the time they arrived I was overly stressed with waiting.

Have to hold fire for the drugs to work they say, review in a couple of days.

I hope you are all having OK days.

Not a good day here. Dh been a star and sorted kids and school run and I was in bed til 10 am. Cleaned rats out together and had lunch but all I can think about is bed but have so much housework to do.

On a different note have found out that everyone bar 1 person on my section at work had left so when I go back I will know no-one. Dh is saying dont stress about it but cant help it. I get embarrassed having to rely on my team members to help me but it wasnt so bad before as they were my friends.

Thanks goodmythical north loveis I've been just hiding in my room since and sleeping . It's like my body has no energy at all. Me & DH still haven't spoken & I'm sure he still feels pissed at me

loveis hope you managed to get some sleep and are feeling s bit better.

Goodmythical I don't want to leave my bed so completely understand. Be kind to yourself. As for housework tell it to do one for now.

TWRP hope your day is a bit better. It can take a while for medication to take effect sometimes weeks so bare with them.

Hello to everyone else and ciq thinking of u and family today

Afternoon all,
Well, had another dip yesterday and I'm considering going back to up my Citalopram. My counseling session was cancelled last week & that wasn't helpful.
I managed a whole nights sleep last night though and spoke to my best friend which helped, half the scenarios my brain comes up with are total crap and at times of clarity (they are rare) I see things are actually ok.

I'm going away with my 2 best friends at the beginning of June for 4 days and I can't wait