cannot do this any more

[Carbonel]

Was just beginning to feel a bit better then life throws more shit. MIL died last night and I feel so unutterably sad both for her and because I cannot be there for DH. Cannot stop crying and stopped my ADs last night as cannot deal with all this any more. Just want it all to go away

Take your AD please. This isn't a good time for cold turkey there is no such thing with ADs anyway so please go and get a glass of water and take your prescription.

I understand that this time feels so bad for you and but when you are bereaved it is time to reach out for support and not lock yourself away.

Do you have a GP/MH worker you can call and let them know that you are feeling overwhelmed and like stopping your medication? Or call the Samaritans to start to talk about how you are feeling. Bereavement is not a simple process and perhaps you could get support from the boards here (as well as keeping talking in the MH topic).

F*ck now my mother is here trying to be the centre of attention "I just want to be with someone else who loved her". she never loved anyone but herself.