Mental Normality NOS

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Everyone is welcome.

I have that but it's stopped now.

I forget words, I feel like I'm taking French and forget random words (as I do (in France))
And I get letters and numbers muddled up. I'm not on meds though, so it's just my brain!!!
Iwas, your friend sounds lovely :)

When in a v anxious state once, I ended up with my little finger wrapped around my ring finger and I couldn't entangle it. I actually went to minor injuries as I was convinced I'd dislocated it, or whatever. It was weird and the nurses were very sweet and apparently skilled in dealing with mentally abnormals. They even strapped it up

Oh dear millie

I know, I was probably the subject of a letter to the Journal of Minor Injury Medicine (abnormal patient edition)
In contrast, I fractured my foot a few years back and refused to get it looked at, preferring to hobble round, in agony. My excuse, when I finally got it examined? "I've got a horse"...

It's fascinating in a way how delicate many of our brain functions are and how easily disrupted.

She sounds lovely mandb

I know my speech is always heavily affected by whatever is going on. When I'm low it's very slow and monotonous and not much of it; when I'm up people (doctors, etc.) tell me they've never heard anybody talk so fast . I stutter on some medications, repeat things on others, emit grunts of frustration at not being able to say the words that are right there in my fucking head , lose words when I have a migraine… when I was a little kid apparently my speech was strange so maybe I just never learnt to do it properly

Earlier I was trying to explain to DP what was going on and ended up stuck during the explanation too, saying, "It's like I'm stuck in a fucking cycle in a fucking cycle
in a fucking cycle in a fucking cycle in a fucking cycle in a fucking cycle in a fucking cycle NGGGHHHH fuckitfuckitfuckitfuckitfuckitfuckit…"

That does sound odd about the finger, Millie. Are you hypermobile?

The weather feels like it's starting to get warmer - was out in the garden shovelling up rubble today and it was lovely. And my bulbs are all coming up. Pretty snowdrops

My bulbs are too. I love it.

I've just had a fb invite thing for a friend who is running 69 miles along hadrians wall . Another friend is doing 50 miles for an ultra marathon. These people are barmy, and if they weren't so nice I would hate them.

The best thing about going out walking nearly every day last year was watching the seasonal changes. That's a mentally normal thing to like, right?

My brother did a twenty mile run this morning They're all crackers.

Yeah totally normal.

What an amazing person, Iwas, and as you say, all the more remarkable for being able to understand despite no personal experience.

I'm lucky with my family in that they accept and understand MH problems. My schoolfriends were also lovely when I went into hospital as a kid - sent me little letters and presents and things to cheer me up. I haven't had many friends since, though - a school move, followed quickly by a house move to another county, followed by moving to live with DP, during a time when I was too ill to work/study, meant that my circle of friends dwindled to almost nothing and I became a little isolated. I think/hope things may be improving though.

I'm waiting with bated breath for all my other bulbs - I have a new planter after some majorly productive work in my garden last year - it stalled a bit when I got depressed, but roll on spring and warm enough weather to work in the garden

Good Morning all here to another depressing week. How I hate that feeling knowing I have to go through it,all again.

Oh dear bright

Ah but there might be more bits of the week where you feel Not Depressed than there were last week.

I've made a doctors appt to get a new sick note, so feeling pretty rubbish in my identity as a person currently (I Love my job)

Caulk, I need to extend my sick note, you've just reminded me. I've got an appt with occ health in s couple of weeks, want to find a way to leave work, as I can't face going back
Any more thoughts on a new job?

happy Monday everyone

I'm extremely fat and many things are a bit shit but despite that today contains the multiple excitements and pleasures of CPN, physio, yoga, horsebeasts and taking the spaniel for a walk

I like Mondays for the same reason I love NYE because they always promise the opportunity (at least) to do things differently or make Other Choices - if I start again (again) today (and I feel like it would be a good idea) I could be here this time next week celebrating my extraordinary success in, I dunno, not purging for a week or something

maybe!

things that are nice so far today:

calf raises are getting easier and less painful
a friend sent me a model of a series II station wagon Land Rover, the longer wheelbase that looks a bit like the 110 defender
my body feels nice after being prodded and stretched yesterday
the birds are singing
I remembered to put the bin out
I slept well last night

Those things are very nice.

I have seen a local/daily mail celebrity in my doctors surgery which is always fun.

Oooh, ponders who that is. Is he/she in doctors?
Your surgery isn't the one in the place with "castle" in the name? That would be too freaky (I used to work there)

I don't know. Probably. It's by the library but it has a different name.

Another four weeks off work. I would be so pissed off if one of my friends had this much time off.

Yes that's the one. The Drs were nice (if they are the same Drs). The senior GP was always lovely with people with MH issues
Only one grumpy receptionist too ;) (but she might have retired)

I haven't managed to call the gp. I'm hoping they will renew the sick note without seeing me, but obv I have to actually request this :/