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Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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creamhearts · 18/12/2014 21:17

I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

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Loveisashadow · 08/03/2015 17:36

I think I am getting worse as time goes on, frances, yes. But not as bad as when I was psychotic. I was very, very poorly then. The depression is most certainly getting worse now though.

Pulledapart · 09/03/2015 20:52

Hi all,

I'm out of hospital but still feeling not really great. Sorry to read so many are still struggling. Thinking of u all and lots of ((( hugs )))

wfrances · 09/03/2015 21:02

hi pulled - glad your home
loveis - hope your feeling better today (and everyone else)

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creamhearts · 09/03/2015 21:09

Glad you are home pulled xx

Thoughts to everyone else xx

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Loveisashadow · 10/03/2015 10:30

Glad you are home pulled
Good to see you here cream; how are you doing?

I've got my Drama group and the psych later. I don't like the psych or my CpN , but could probably do with a little extra help.

Warmbedsocks · 10/03/2015 18:05

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TheSilveryPussycat · 10/03/2015 18:10

bedsocks can you tweak meds? I did that (temporarily doubled olanzapine), although consulted GP first. Do you have a CPN you could ring?

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Loveisashadow · 10/03/2015 18:51

Hello all, been to see the psych today. Said I can reduce my anti psycho tic but need to up my anti depressants. I'm getting used to it all (the med changes) now.

Warmbedsocks, is there anything that helps with the come down so you can prepare? I don't know if that sounds daft though, sorry if it does.

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TheSilveryPussycat · 10/03/2015 22:06

Recognising them is a great step forward. You also need to trust DH to know how far you've gone, because the next stage can be loss of insight.

Northumberlandlass · 11/03/2015 08:30

((morning all))
Had a rough couple of days and didn't sleep well at all last night. Dreams were negative and excluding, I have woken feeling jittery.

STBXH and I have agreed re the house and I will buy him out. Solicitors appointment on Friday to sort that.

Spoke to psych referral yesterday morning and she thinks I would benefit from CBT and some counseling (I agree), so she is going to call me back soon with details of appointments. I need to stop the negative spiraling thoughts. The Citalopram is helping, but I felt very unsettled last night and could feel the tightening in my chest, but no shivers or breathing issues.

Loveisashadow · 11/03/2015 12:23

(morning) well, afternoon now!

That's good about the house, Northumberland. Sorry about your dreams- they are horrible aren't they?

That's also good about CBT and counselling. I get very negative spiralling thoughts, so can understand what you mean about stopping them before they become too much of an issue.

I'm at home today, having been out and 'doing things' for the past two days I was very tired. Plus I'm very skint so it's not a good idea to be out buying coffees etc. I am doing a bit better than I was- have done lots of housework and am now drinking coffee. Feeling very tearful though, really worried about money and meeting the bils this month and about looking for a job even though I can't really work at the minute.

How's everyone else doing?

Northumberlandlass · 11/03/2015 12:31

Sounds like the last couple of days have been an improvement Loveis Money is a worry for me too, even though I am working. I've never lived alone (and won't strictly be alone as DS will be here) but I feel the responsibility!

Take it easy today. How is your DD doing?

Loveisashadow · 11/03/2015 13:24

I know Northumberland, that's part of the problem of single parenting I find, the being on your own and everything falling to you. Are there any single parent's support groups near you? There aren't any near me and dd is that bit older now, so daytime when she's at school can be a bit lonely.

I get ESA and am seriously overdrawn until payday so it's a bit of a 'don't go anywhere or see anyone' sort of situation for me until it improves. I find that isolation makes me worse, though, so I do try and get out/meet up with friends as often as I can. Even if I just go out for a walk or to the local library, I feel I've done something productive some days. I really struggle with fatigue and overdoing things though, so try not to do too much as it builds up and then I end up ill again.

DD is doing really well. Not long until I have to leave at twenty to three to pick her up. Nearly all of my day has been housework related today. Need to plan something for tommorow so I don't get too out of touch with people and isolated. I am thinking a walk in a local park if the weather's nice - and then taking my library signing up form in. That or busying myself with job applications if I'm in the right frame of mind. Should do that sooner rather than later, really, and it's something useful whilst dd is at school.

I've hit a sudden wall of tiredness. Can barely keep my eyes open today. I get very frustrated with the fatigue of fibromaylagia.

Northumberlandlass · 11/03/2015 13:48

It sounds like you deserve a nap Loveis Smile
I think even getting out for a walk is a good thing, even saying "good morning" to folk is contact with the outside world.

I am pleased your DD is doing well.

My DS is 11 now, I do see people - I work FT so have work colleagues (and a couple of good friends here), plus I do have two very good mates who I speak to most days.
I am pleased STBXH and I have agreed on house / money, hopefully he'll get himself a flat soon and DS can spend more time with him

Loveisashadow · 11/03/2015 18:24

I never nap when dd is at school. Worried I'll miss my alarm or something. I feel a bit calmer now, had a bit of a wobble earlier when I suddenly felt dirty and had tactile flashbacks. Had a bath and took a propanolol, that really helped. My friend is comibg over this evening (in a little bit) so I won't be on my own tonight. Gave ask ed a couple of friends if they want to come round tommorow evening, as I think being on my own makes things worse.

That's good about work and your friends :) it's good that you can manage that at the same time as being ill. You must be very strong to do it.

Northumberlandlass · 12/03/2015 08:19

I am still coming to terms with the term 'being ill', if that makes sense. I have functioned like this for a long time and assumed that everyone had those voices in their head, that critical voice. Anyway, it was quite a revelation that they don't!

Had a friendly chat with STBXH last night and he has agreed to 50/50 parenting, which is great as I will start having time to myself which I need to recharge my batteries.

I am pleased you have people to keep you company. That is good.
I hope you are feeling calm this morning

Loveisashadow · 12/03/2015 12:13

That makes sense Northumberland. I thought the same for a long time, that everyone saw things or had very odd thought patterns. It never occured to me that there had been a time when I was well and didn't react or behave like I do now.

Struggling today. Went to town this morning but caught sight of myself in the mirror and felt massively down. Then came back home and was overwhelmed by dirt/mess/smell (it's clean and tidy but in my head it's awful) and then had tactile flashbacks. I feel dirty now- as though I need a good scrub in the bath, even though I had one before I took dd to school. I feel as though I- and the house- are caked in dirt and grime.

It is very, very tiring and I feel as though I can't do anything- not even go to town because my confidence is shattered. Really wanted to go to the musuem, have a coffee and then pick DD up but have retreated home instead because I couldn't cope with the sight of myself.

Wish I had the energy to tidy up but I've tried and tried and got nowhere. Guess it's just a bad day here today. Have to pick DD up later.

That's really, really good about the 50/50 parenting, it will make a difference because it is very hard on your own.

wfrances · 16/03/2015 14:33

afternoon all
its really quite in the village, is that a good thing is everyone well?

Pulledapart · 16/03/2015 16:08

I'm doing okaish!

Hope everyone is well x

GooodMythicalMorning · 16/03/2015 20:43

Lost the thread but back now. Have changed from propranolol to citalopram today. Extreme anxiety at school pick up time so im guessing it the new tablets side effects.

Northumberlandlass · 17/03/2015 08:27

Morning - sorry haven't posted for a few days.
I have a question though....I am now at week 3 of Citalopram (20mg) & I have forgotten to take my tablet this morning Sad I'm at work now so won't be able to take it until I get home about 6pm. Will I feel a difference? I feel anxious about it.

I am back at GP next Monday and while I do feel calmer on Citalopram, I still have quite negative thoughts / low days. Is this normal?

Anyway - I have a list a mile long of things to sort for the house, DS is pushing all my buttons and I am weary of working FT & taking everything else on too. DS is away at Scout camp this weekend so will get a much needed break.

How is everyone doing?

GooodMythicalMorning · 17/03/2015 12:42

Day 2 of Citalopram here. I feel rubbish and sick and so wobbly and tremory I couldnt take the dc to school this morning and had to wait for dh to get home to take them (night shift) my anxiety is sky high today.

Northumberlandlass · 17/03/2015 12:56

(((Goood)))
Was there a reason you changed from Propranolol to Citalopram? I am sorry you feel rubbish Sad - I felt the effects (good) quite early Citalopram and I have a headache now, I don't know if it's because I have missed a pill or because I know I have (if that makes sense).

Do you have counseling as well? I am hoping to get CBT for my anxiety in the next couple of weeks