Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

Sorry to hear you experienced this too. I have spent a lot of time crying almost hysterically this evening, just anything and everything. Am now lying in bed reading mumsnet. Have a banging headache after crying so much and am feeling sick too. I have ask ed my friend if, after the date passes and I still feel the same, it might be worth contacting crisis or my cpn. My friend has got dd tonight because i really wasn't well enough to collect her from school. I am feeling absolutely awful and only made the connection with the date after Dad asked if it were his birthday soon. Then it suddenly made sense, how low I've been feeling.

Thinking of you today Loveis

Thanks Northumberland lass My friend is having my DD today, she's just coming round to fetch her clothes and then taking her to a party before taing her overnight. My friend was really worried about me yesterday but I have picked up a little bit today and managed to get a bit of housework and some other stuff done today. My anxiety is still very high, I can feel myself getting hot and bothered. I forgot to have breakfast today, too. Yesterday was really horrible and I think I'm still feeling the effects of that.

How's everyone else doing today? (( to all ))

I am pleased you have picked up a little. Be kind to yourself.
Acknowledge the anxiety - I try to fight it which I know doesn't help. Try to eat something.

Yesterday was yesterday, easier to say - but it's over now.

I have a busy weekend ahead, but have booked Mon / Tues off as holiday from work just to get a break. I need to clean whole house for valuations on Monday and Tues I have a psych triage phone call in the morning.

I have proponalol for the anxiety, that really helps. Have forgetten some things from the shops so I'll go in a bit. My friend said the same, to not do too much. Though she did say she could instantly see that I was a lot better than I was.

I was invited out by two of my ex partner's ex's earlier...I politely declined the offer.

What's psych triage? Sorry, am totally new to this mental health stuff.
Good luck with the house cleaning. I hate housework with a passion.

I got referred from GP last week (not coping & broke down at surgery), she gave me some Citalopram & referred me to psych team - they sent me a questionnaire & have arranged to phone me on Tues morning to carry out an assessment & decide what kind of help I need.

I want to start this process, although think it will be painful. But nothing can be as painful as the feeling of drowning & not being able to cope (that's what I'm telling myself)

I am pleased your friend thinks you seem a bit better. That is good.

Housework HAS to be done unfortunately

An assesment sounds like a step in the right direction. Can you think of anything you'd like to help?

I have had therapy twice and understand what you are saying about the procces. Do you want counselling or something else ? I've just been reffered to psychology but had to really push for it as my cpn was dithering!

Housework? I know it's horrible isn't it? I struggle so much to stay on top of mine.

What's everyone's plans for the weekend? Think I get a chilled out day on Saturday as dd won't be back until tea time and then see my Dad for lunch on Sunday.

My anxiety is creeping up- am feeling very hot now, despite taking propanlol.

I need help to find coping mechanisms for times when my anxiety peaks - i have been known just to shut down.
So much has happened in last 8 months - my DM was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia in August (and told without treatment would have weeks left), she is now in remission, my DH left on NY eve & on top of that I've had a personal knockback too, which while hasn't been the most awful thing was the straw that broke the camels back. My self esteem is shot. I need LOTS of help!!
GP prescribed Citalopram to help lift me.
I've always suffered from low level anxiety & coped with different techniques. But I've lost grasp of that x

That's a lot to cope with in language short space of time. I know what you mean about anxiety, yesterday I was quite bad and forgot the way back from school, what I was doing or why I was doing it. I was reduced to a totally non functioning state in the space of a few hours...Just staring into space and crying hysterically.
I think the trick to coping might be recognising the points before that, before something snaps inside, but it's hard when life is very busy isn't it? I've never really approached the coping thing, so I'm afraid I can't be much help, except to say that I totally empathise.

How are you feeling now?

Ach, I'm ok (((Loveis)))
I've been shopping (oh the glamour) and my friend is coming around in a while so I can choreograph a dance for her.

STBXH isn't having DS much at all & i've had exactly 5 hours to myself since NY eve I need that time to myself.

Coping with low level stuff up until now hasn't stopped my spiralling thoughts but I can calm myself down with meditation/breathing etc. a couple of weeks ago, I really scared myself with such hysterical tears, not being able to breathe & feeling of hopelessness. I knew it was time to get help.

The last time I shut down was after a concert I sang in. I started to lose it on stage. I was expected to attend a party after with all my friends & I ended up just shutting down & walking out

How are you feeling Loveis? I hope you are ok too x

Are you involved in Dram type stuff? I have just finished a degree in Drama. Well, last year, but then I got ill so it feels much closer, tins wise, as I've lost a lot of time, or the sense of it at least.

Have you got arrangements for synch and contact with ds? Hard I know, but he must take his part of the responsibility. What other family do u have?

I have a friend who takes my dd if I'm not well, even if she has to convince me sometimes. She's really lovely and has a dh aroubd to help out too. He's a psychiatrist so has been very, very helpful in giving me advice and understanding.

I don't know how old your ds is, but could you try something like homestart?

I'm ok, dd is with my friend so I'm 're colouring my hair and having a bath in the bit.

Yes, am dram. I love it & singing was always my greatest love
That has been part of my self esteem problems really. I had been in a bad relationship for so long, i found my self esteem on stage. A few weeks ago, I missed out a part to my best mate & it hit me really hard. It was my 'something to look forward to'

DS is 11 now, in middle school. So, he isn't that young. My parents are great & nearby, but obviously my mum has been through so much too.

I am hoping that when we get the house sorted & STBXH has his own place, he'll have DS more often. It's a matter of time.

A bath sounds like a good idea! My friend is bringing a bottle of wine around too, but can only have one small glass

Am dram sound ace :) I'm more the theory side than performing, but there is something about the stage isn't there?

So, do understand about finding self esteem on stage, I'm exactly the same. I don't perform as much now though because my dd is so little. I'm in a drama group that is putting on a showcase about mental health for non mental health settings soon. I really enjoy it.

It must be hard with ds on your own, I have been a single mum for 6 years and still find it very, very hard.

Hope you enjoy your glass of wine ! I don't drink very often, but when I do, I can tolerate a couple of glasses on my meds...Just a thought ;)

Wow your showcase sounds interesting! That's great.

I've only been a single parent for 9 weeks ....(i can't believe it's actually been that long).

I know that I can only have one drink on my meds! I felt VERY strange last weekend after a cocktail! I stopped drinking straight away

afternoon all,
can i pick your brains, has anyone applied for pip for mental health issues?
mines been turned down twice and now going to tribunal.

Have a look at the Benefits and Work website. To get the full detailed guides you need re PIP and appeals, you'll have to join (~£20) but it could well be worth it.

Hi Frances, if you are on facebook, there is a page called 'fightback'; I think they might charge or as for donations to use their services, though.

Sorry I posted too soon! How is everyone doing this weekend? Sorry for taking up the thread with my wittering on.

I'm doing a bit better, still feeling very wobbly and slightly out of touch with reality. DD will be back very soon- she stayed at a friends' on Thursday and Friday as I was struggling so much.

I've really missed her and think her being around will be good in bringing me back round to reality a bit - less time to dwell on my thoughts.

thanks, ive had a look .

my brain keeps playing tricks on me, i keep hearing my kitchen radio on ,go in to turn it off and it stops, its not even plugged in.
i can hear mens voices like theyre chatting in very close proximity to me eg . outside my front door, in my back garden .everytime i go and look ,it stops.
yesterday afternoon i lost hours , i hate it ,it annoys dp, he leaves comes back 3 hours later and im in trance ,havnt moved .
its like i go on a journey in my mind and im oblivious to time or anything around me.

Sorry you are feeling like this, Frances. Do you have a plan /things to do a distraction? It sounds like the dissociation I some times feel, but very extreme. I'm not sure what to suggest there to help though. Sorry I can't be more helpful, feel a bit useless at the minute.

Have been crying uncontrollably all morning, but managed to get to the shops for milk and a few other things. Feeling absolutely wrung out now. Have done lots of housework.

love is- thats the thing -if none is around to distract me - i float away .
nothing works ,im not even aware im doing it.
Is you daughter home now? are you still having those horrific nightmares?

That sounds horrible, Frances.
Yes, my dd is home now. I'm still having nightmares, yes. Last night, I dreamt that I died. I've been crying on and off all day today.

do you think they are getting worse with time ?
have you spoken to someone about them specifically ,to see if theres something to target them .
could your meds be making them worse - i had worse nightmares on beta blockers.
have you tried Prazosin ? its for adult nightmares associated with ptsd .

sorry posted too soon.
hypnotherapy helped with my nightmares but you have to have top up sessions and i didnt
so during the 8 week course and for months after i was not as bad but they came back. i should have had top up sessions at least 1 every 4 months.
very expensive.