Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

[creamhearts]

I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

cream so sorry to hear this. Dare I ask, did you come off the meds without a HCP being involved? From your past pattern, I would agree it sounds like you should restart as soon as poss - can DH help in some way?

Sorry so many villagers are struggling. Pulled your life is so difficult with so many physical as well as MH problems. I know it's a mixed blessing living with family, but probably better in the long run.

CIQ so sorry that you had such a tough time at parent's evening - sound like the teacher was insensitive, but when our emotional equilibrium is so fragile, it doesn't take much for us to cave in. You might not want to say but I wonder if DD is having difficulties at school because of the troubles at home. I think your kids are primary school age aren't they. You've been through so much as a family for so long (and of course things are not an even keel now) it would be a bit odd if the kids weren't affected in some way. Primary schools are usually very supportive of their pupils who are having a tough time at home.

Cream You must take the meds or you will be back in hospital. Please.....I think you've just started a new job haven't you and it was so good to hear that you were doing so well. Yes as silvery says can DH use his powers of persuasion to get you back on the meds. Are you seeing crisis, or a CPN?

Hi to everyone else - I'm up and down as usual - I have an apt with the new consultant psychiatrist next week who has recently started work at the MH Trust and my CPN speaks very highly of her, so am hopeful she just might be able to find some combination of meds that will give me longer periods of stability.

Took myself of them. I won't end up back in hospital, not worried about that at all. I start my new job in a week. DH doesn't know am not on meds. May retstart this weekend. Been off them a month.

Sorry to hear you are unwell pulled

Good luck with psych NanaNina

Oh cream this is not good, not good at all. Has DH not noticed you are feeling poorly again and have started SI ing again? Please start them again asap and I think you owe it to DH to tell him because he sounds so very supportive of you, no more than he should be of course, but please tell him.

I'll say no more about hospital but I think the fact that you think you are ok without meds is a sign that you are becoming mentally unwell and this will only get worse..........so really hope you will restart and give yourself the opportunity to stay well.

I'm not in denial, they told me after my last admission that I won't be going back to hospital because it is not useful for me. I am not suicidal, just self harmy. Will discuss with CPN on Wednesday. Feel very low but I really don't think I need the anti-psychotics because I am not psychotic.

Well, I'm not psychotic either. But I still take my dekapote and a small dose of quetiapine each day. Just to be on the safe side.

Hello all, I've not been around for months. Been reading and catching up with you all though. I'm much more stable now. Diagnosis of ptsd, bpd, depression and fibromaylgia. I take risperdone and duolextine. I feel compelled to post after seeing you cream, saying you have stopped anti psychotics. I'm the same as silvery, not psychotic or having voices and visions, but that's because I take my risperdone without fail. I think the 'thing' with most medication is that it's only effective if we keep taking it as pescribed. I know it can be hard to see, but the meds are there for a reason and they are given to us to hopefully help us feel better. And because the side effects are supposed to be minimal compared to the benefit. It took me six months on quetiapine and then risperdone to achieve a halfway decent balance. Anti psychotics don't only treat my voices and visions, but also level out my mood. I can only say from my perspective, but I'd be lost without mine now. I feel 100% better taking them. Please think about having a talk with your partner, family or Doctor and re starting your meds. They can-and will- help.

I hope it was Ok to post that. I have missed updating, but had to leave as I was very very unwell and it wasn't good for me- or anyone else. Pleased to say I'm more stable, though suffering from depression just now. (( )) to you all.

glad to see you back loveis.

cream - are you fluffy? i really think you should make someone aware you are off meds. just as a back up.

Yes i was fluffydg!

Talked to dh last night he knows I'm off my meds is worried but supportive. My cpn knows as well.

Feel really very low and desructive.

I am glad you have told people, do you think you will go back on the meds? At the end of the day it is really up to you so i am not going to nag you, we are all here to support you whatever you choose to do. I just worry because you were so very unwell.

Thanks lem

I hope you are ok :) x

Glad you let some one know, Cream. I understand the reluctance to take meds, I really don't like my risperdone. It's helpful to have outside perspective though, everyone says I'm much more stable and talks in very positive terms about recovery, so I keep taking it. I hope your cpn is helpful. Mine is a bit useless, but my psychiatrist is absolutely top. She knows what she is doing. I hope you have at least one supporter you can trust, it makes a big difference doesn't it?

Hello. Is it ok if I join this thread? I've relapsed back into my 'bad place' after many years of being mentally stable.

Ok. Rang crisis as have a plan for tomorrow am that is not good. They will ring back later when someone who knows me is on.

I am feeling very unsafe and scared.

But equally. I can have the conversation with her myself.

Crisis: well it is your choice
Me: I know that
Crisis: You are not going back to hosp
Me: I don't want to
Crisis: Take your meds
Me: I am a stupid dickhead

Result is the same and plan goes ahead and shit hits the fan.

I want to not be here now. I am tired.

DH knows, CPN knows, crisis know. Nobody else to tell.

Hello, ed.
Cream, I don't really know if I'm being helpful or not, but is there a reason you aren't taking your meds? If that could be overcome, would you take them again? Sorry I know that might sound like a silly question, ignore me if it's not helpful. I wish there were some way I could be more help.

cream good that you've rung crisis team.

hello edS (we sometimes have another ed, assuming you're not her).

Did something happen, or did this relapse just come out of the blue?

Honestly I felt really well so stopped them.

Feel v.su.

Tired of this shit.

I know I should take them but I don't want to have to.

Cream, do you think you could try a few days back on them, see if that levels out your mood a bit? I know when I stopped my quietapine I went into withdrawal and was vomiting as well as very low- I empathise with what you are going through. Totally understand not wanting to take them, but maybe you could try a little and see how you get on?

(My last sentence was addressed to edS btw)

Unfortunately cream, feeling well is not a reason to stop. I know it may not seem like it at the time, that is why one has to "hardwire in" the decision to keep taking them, iyswim.

I can really sympathise with finding it difficult to keep on the meds. It's a struggle to keep it in mind that they keep you well, when you're feeling well.

That is it isn't it keema

I have taken the meds today :(

Waiting for a visit from CRS.

Thanks for your kind words everyone x

Thinking of you today cream x

thinking of you cream xx

half term here - ugghhhhhh DP is making me anxious because he is slacking on a job

Thinking of you cream especially today and really hope your safe

Been struggling with the vertigo but slightly better today. Yes the lovely half term is here but of course DD was up normal time of 7.30 am

((( Hugs to all struggling ))) sorry to out of it to name check everyone.

Also must say thank you to u all for ur kind words/advice recently and for thinking of me

Glad you have taken the meds, Cream. Hope crisis are helpful.
Lem, can empathise with you on half term woes here too. Dd is usually great, but the school holidays usually result in a fibromyalgia flare for me. I'm already shattered and drinking as much coffee as I can manage. I've chosen not to have opiate based painkillers for it, as the consultant offered, because I don't want to become addicted. It's a fine balance and I'm still adjusting though.

Hope you feel better soon, pulled.