Winter in the village - support for all kinds of MH issues - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis, bipolar...

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I know the thread is a bit dead but I thought I would start a new one and see if we can keep it going xx

Hi all, sorry I haven't been in for a few days, hope you're all ok. ( will read back now )

Was wondering if any of you have tried the Paul McKenna self help books? I'm on Amazon now looking at 'control Stress' - it looks quite good.

hear hear faith

like no I haven't, but maybe worth a search on here...

I feel like my brain has flipped over to the dark side today. Feel sh*t. 99% negative thoughts, no joy, no concentration. Dd says mummy you look sad

Oh so sorry to hear that (( hugs )) I have days like that too, the black cloud just doesn't shift.

Crikey - he can make me rich, happy, thin, smart, - that's where I've been going wrong! all I need to do is read books. haha

hee hee if only it were that easy. I'm sure I've seen some threads on here where people have found the weight stuff helpful, but am not convinced myself.

Well done Ed on finally completing your PGCE! And getting a permanent post on your first interview. Are you primary or secondary - the latter I think, as I think science is your subject isn't it. I haven't seen Vicar for a long time on the thread. She namechanged as something unpleasant had happened, regarding her son and his employers. I often wonder how she is, because of course she started the VILLAGE thread, and I know you 2 felt a connection with each other. I'm so glad you picked yourself up because the last post I remember was you feeling very low........good luck with the new job.

Pulled Just seen you have a B12 vit deficiency as well as everything else, but I'm glad that has been discovered, and am wondering if that is anything to do with your recent problems, because if left untreated B12 deficiency can cause nerve damage, usually in the feet and legs. Are you having injection? My GP thought I had that but she isn't sure, so she's referred me to a haematologist to make certain. I have a B9 deficiency (low in folate) that causes anaemia and am taking folic acid daily. B12 deficiency can make you feel very ill - my DIL has it and she had zero energy before she was diagnosed and was vomiting and looked dreadful. After the first few injections she was like a different person.

Oh CIQ sorry to hear you are still struggling. You seem (like me) to go up and down a fair bit. I know you've got financial difficulties and feel paranoid because you think people expect you to go out to work, but your own mental health is not exactly robust is it, to say nothing of the issues with DH. Don't worry about what other people think.

Lem I dunno what to say. You've not been well for a long long time and I know you and DH don't get on sometimes, but it always seems to me that your irritations with each other seem to blow over and somehow you manage to get back on track. Forgive me if I've got that wrong......are the new meds making any difference to your anxiety.

I'm in a very strange phase at the moment, with truly awful mornings, when I feel deeply depressed and just stay under the duvet till 12 ish and then once I'm up I seem to pick up and by early afternoon I'm usually ok. Mind I've been through so many different phases, I never know what's coming next. The only predictable thing is the unpredictability!

Hello to everyone else!

Snowy how are you. I think I saw you sounding a bit better on another thread.

Awww ((( ciq ))) I too know the feeling where the black cloud won't lift. Hope you manage to get some rest tonight and feel slightly more positive in the morning.

like I've not read any of those books. I'm always a little dubious about someone that promises the world. Could be worth a go though if you can get them cheap?

How could I neglect to congratulate ed?

ciq forgot to say that of course you should continue with your painting, the exhibition sounds promising.

nana you always express things so well, and your posts are both practical and - well, sort of soothing :) Grab the good bits of your day!

Thanks silvery, faith, nana
I'm really hoping the black cloud lifts a bit tomorrow. Am supposed to be meeting my dad to help cheer Him up! It's all feeling too much tonight. I'm back to the old chestnuts of the kids would be better being brought up by my brother and his wife . It's like slipping back into the deep muddy ruts along the track which are full of black and negativeness, having been bumping along on the tufty bits for a while.

Sleep well all.

nana you are right ( as usual ). i think when i up the dose i might feel better.

ciq have a better day tomorrow. it will be good to see your dad.

thanks again guys for getting me through this.

Morning all. How is everyone feeling today? I didn't sleep very well again and I'm struggling to express myself today so sorry if my posts aren't the best.

I hope you have a good day with your dad ciq perhaps it'll help distract you from your own black cloud. I'm sure that's not true at all about your children.

Morning all.

Just had massive row with dh - I officially hate him, no wonder I'm fucked up mentally.

Still, let's have another

like I'll join you in a

You say your marriage is not so good, I have been there, and might still be, were it not for MN - I found MN while looking for stuff about mh, and ended up saved by the Relationship board! Would it help to post there about yr marriage? or here, even?

Thank you :-)

Tbh, I could fill a 1000 post thread with my marital problems, so it's best to keep it to a minimum ( for me as well as everyone else ) I know dh isn't to blame for my anxiety as I've been having panic attacks since I was 13
but he doesn't help. It's helping me just being able to post a sentence or two on here though it really is. My problem in RL is I pretend to everyone I'm happy.

I think we all do that to a degree, LikeIcan. People who know me wouldn't believe i was so messed up.

Woke up with the mother of all headaches, have been to work and hoping that DD and DP will come on one of those treasure trail things.

CiQ i hope you have a good day with your dad. Your children are lucky to have you actually.

I feel like im a bit of a tunnel just now, am hoping i manage to escape it soon.

Thanks everyone. Am on train now. Starting to get distracted which is good. Take care everyone.

Hope you have a good afternoon ciq

I've counselling this afternoon - another new counsellor - and panicking. Feel like I'm just going to burst into tears in there but I hate crying in front of people and it makes me close down and try my hardest not to let it out :(

faith I have often sat with tears rolling down my cheeks... it is better not to keep it in- I think you get more out of the counselling and they've seen it all many times before. Good luck x

Feel like I'm not coping at all atm :( many of my friends are going through a tough time mental health wise too and I just feel like I'm being a shit friend by moaning about my problems instead of supporting them. Can feel myself spiralling and have no idea how to get out of it. I hate the weekends as there's so much less support available irl. I feel really triggered and wanting to self harm. Currently sat on my bed crying and trying to stop myself harming myself :(

faith with my own friends w mh problems, I have found that it is supportive to moan about my own problems, and at the same time listen to theirs. It stops us feeling so alone, and hearing about others' problems can sometimes give us an insight into our own.

faith how are you doing now?
I'm just in from trip (Dh and Dcs came home earlier). found it v v hard to walk home, just wanted to keep walking and find somewhere in the dark to hide. My head feels like it will explode. Being constantly bombarded with negative thoughts.
Should ring my cmht number but what's the point really, I don't want to up my meds unless I have to and that's what they'll say. Feel like I'm sliding into a black hole. I've had so much support from friends and family and my lovely GP and I still can't hold it together. Feel like I should tell someone irl but can't think who.

Counselling went really well. She was really easy to talk to and really put me at ease. It's hard dealing with some of the things that came up and I'm did cry in front of her but it was okay. I'm glad I went and I'm seeing her again next week.

ciq is there anyone you can chat to when you ring cmht or will they all suggest just upping meds? Sometimes we can have all the help in the world and we still can't hold it together. There's nothing wrong with that (other than it's obviously a tough place to be) and I think sometimes we all need to accept that it's okay to feel that way. We shouldn't feel like we should be able to cope just because the people around us are really supportive. Is there a friend you can call?

ciq how are you just now? can you get some sleep? do you have any diazepam?

I am messaging a friend, but he's a guy so not sure I should be! But he's good to talk to.

if that's what you need to do just now ciq its ok. i often find men easier to talk to.