thread on which to be factitiously Mentally Normal (NOS)

[Mitchy1nge]

nobody was wondering but not only am I still alive, the horribleness of my back pain has completely stopped is all a bit tender and traumatised but hooray for me

and partial hooray for the weirdness that is tramadol I suppose

do you know what channel that's on? I just have a streaming device and can search within each channel if that makes sense

Channel 5

I can't find it on demand5 :(

watched the show jumping episode of faking it on 4OD which for some reason made me cry and cry and cry and cry all the way through

have made my way to Netflix to watch long way down, years ago I got nick hornby to sign a copy at bookslam for #2 even though she can't stand him (inability to write a female character or something?)

Am at the dentist accompanying Mavis, who is dealing with her tooth problems by plastering her teeth in chewing gum (toothpaste is better for putting on flea bites apparently).

I've just got back from town, got a nice dress knocked down to £20 (monsoon). Feeling exhausted from being on high alert.

Duvet day here for me and DD
I'm signed off work with stress anyhow, but have a manky virus on top, DD was v v distressed this morning and seemed to be going down with something, but is now running riot :/

Woe is Me, I have a dodgy chest. Mavis's place is full of dander and smoke residues, which doesn't go well with a cough.

[wheeze]

Had a good afternoon/evening actually - went to Mavis's emergency dental appointment with her, then I went to a guided visualisation session, had a coffee out with DP, then back to Mavis's to play cards. She was miraculously unstoned all day and coping really well with being out, people, and she was Nice Unstoned Mavis rather than Stressed Snappy Unstoned Mavis. Yay

What's the dress like, Snowy?

Sorry to hear you're feeling grotty, Millie - I can't imagine how much harder it must be to deal with when you have kids to look after on top of everything else.

Did you find anything else to watch, Mitchy?

I can't remember if you were planning on going into work today, Caulk - hope you had a good day and are getting over your grottiness too.

Mp, hope you've managed to get some sleep.

I've been in work, but have been pretty unproductive. A friend was killed yesterday whilst cycling he was hit by a lorry, and I found out about it whilst at work. So have been generally sad about that, and the unfairness of life.

Now applying for new jobs, as mine is just getting worse and is not helping me to be Mentally Normal.

Oh I'm so sorry, that's awful

It's a long and navy dress. I'm glad you had a good afternoon/evening Enpoid

I'm feeling low, trying to distract with QI.

That sounds super classy, Mouse

With any luck the distraction will help.

It's horrible, and am being selfish about it, as others knew him better than me, but it's still hideous and nasty and so very sad. He was one of the good guys, you know, a genuinely lovely man.

Having to balance it with not wanting to be alive right now myself is pretty tough and not sure how to weigh it all up and make it all feel ok.

That sounds really confusing Caulk. It's not selfish to be sad about a friend dying - the fact that other people are grieving too doesn't lessen your own grief. You must still be pretty shaken by the news.

sorry to hear about your friend caulk, what a horrible shock for you and everyone and sad waste of a life

(((( Caulk ))))

A huge shock. I've had other people of my age die before, but this just feels really horrible, especially as it's been in the paper and everything. Kind of doesn't feel real.

Sorry to bring down the mood folks.

please don't apologise, it's an awful thing to get your head around, and as you say is not as if there isn't quite a lot of dark stuff swirling round your head anyway am hoping for some lighter times for you soon

the search for a new job sounds quite exciting, will it be a whole new role somewhere?

Yes. My boss leaves in 5 weeks, and even though she reduces me to tears most weeks, working without her will be a huge shock and will make a big difference to my workload. She won't be replaced till August at the earliest, and getting out just seems a really sensible idea. So I'm looking for school based stuff instead am qualified teacher but also have applied for stuff like payroll at hospital and nannying stuff.

my mood bit moody before anyway, someone told me about something absolutely unspeakable this morning - maybe slightly a tiny bit my fault for taking the bait and asking the questions (was about the history of a disturbed child, someone's patient) but would prefer it if the whole of the rest of the world would take some responsibility for my personal emotional regulation, at least sometimes and shield me from some of its worst horrors

have decided it simply can't be true anyway

sort of looking forward to going to bed already but might go fucking mental and have a bath

that sounds like a lovely wide net for scooping up something interesting

(I don't think the child is lying, I think someone somewhere is mistaken as to some anomaly, in case it sounds like I routinely disbelieve disturbing disclosures)

I offer consider beginning conversations with "would this have a trigger warning if online" and only being told if it wouldn't, and really only if it's about kittens or something that I actually care about very little currently

Cannot decide whether to eat soup or yoghurt, or if to give up for this evening and go to bed or to go to Asda and Buy It All.

soup sounds warm and nourishing?

am eating my way to victory at the moment (where victory will be 3 months of not restricting or purging, although am only really counting purging) and some sadistic part of me wants everyone else to stuff their faces too

am on day 12 of no purging and very bored of the whole procedure and would like to be Normal already and not count days. Will eat soup because yes, warm and nourishing.

am on day 4 (or is it 5? because of course the joy of house sitting means abusing their food ) since Saturday anyway

we are mentally normal, probably more mentally normal than most people anyway