I'm sorry if this isn't the right place to post, but I posted before about my worries relating to catching diseases in pregnancy and ppl were very helpful. I'll try to keep this fairly brief. I've been experiencing suicidal thoughts, not massively serious but tonight after work I drove to some cliffs near our home. Decided I wasn't going to commit suicide until after the baby is born. Basically I have a fear of catching and passing a bloodborne virus to the baby that massively intensified because of an incident this week. I want to sit it out, get tested in a month and then I am considering whether I can live with myself after the baby's born. If it has a disease through my negligence I don't think I could live with myself. I was recently referred to a mental health team but I'm scared if I tell them how I feel, and then by some miracle the baby is ok it would still be taken away from me.