is anybody around to keep me sane tonight?

[inthenickoftime]

I really need somebody to talk to just to keep my mind running away from me. Long story short told my bf something he didn't want to hear and he left me.

I suffer from PMDD and have in the past sunk into a deep depression resulting in a suicide attempt after i split with my exdp. I am currently 4 days before I'm due on which means any day now my mood swings and depression will be kicking in for a full week.

I know that i don't want to do anything stupid now, no matter how bad i feel. But come the weekend if my bf decides he doesn't want to be with me and ds is up his dads then i don't know how i will be feeling.

i don't know why I'm posting here really....just for some company through the weekend??

I'm so tired. As soon as ds is in bed in going to turn my phone off and jump in a warm bath before bed. Hopefully i will sleep tonight. Will force myself to have some toast too since I've not eaten today. At least it helps with my Xmas diet.

EAT

I hioe you sleep better tonight nick.

Me too enpoid. I'm sure i will be back on here tonight though :(

Ive been tempted by master chef so bedtime will have to wait. Hopefully it will make me feel hungry though....

I know that nobody is around reading but it helps to get my thoughts out anyway. Its officially over and i am completely devastated. I know its ny own fault but it just seems that every time i leave my guard down and really fall for someone then i end up getting hurt.

I'm going to have to explain to ds now that bf wont be around anymore and that the tree will have to go. Its just too hard sitting opposite it all day. I will have to buy a new cheap one. Once i actually get any money anyway. It just feels like everything is going downhill fast and i cant put the brakes on.

i need to find something to distract me the weekend when I'm on my own. I'm currently cuddled in with ds so I'm not on my own but he's off to hos dads tomorrow.

Oh nick I'm so sorry

Did you manage to eat at all?

So sorry to hear that, inthenick - but as I said upthread, if he can't handle this with maturity, then you're better off without him in the long run. I know that's not much help while you're in the throes of the painful break up though! :(

(((((hugs)))) and

So i jumped the gun announcing everything was over! He came round Friday night and we talked it through and managed to sort things out :D I'm so happy!! And even more good news...im starting a new job tomorrow.

That's great I've been thinking of you from time to time and hoping things would look up for you.

I'm definitely jinxed!! Sliced my finger with a bread knife so spent 2 hours in minor injuries unit to get paper stitches and all wrapped up. But i cant get it wet and i need to wash my hair so its nice and clean for my new job tomorrow!! Bugger!!

Disaster! Have you got latex gloves and some surgical tape?

That's my plan for the rest of the week once DP brings them to me but tonight will be a one handed hair wash i think :-\

Twill suffICE IMO