I actually do wish I wasn't here anymore

[TheOriginalNutcracker]

Which is odd cos I always thought i'd never really wish that cos of my kids. I mean i wouldn't do anything, cos of my kids, but i wish to god i could opt out of life now.

It's weird cos lots of times i have thought god, life is so shit right now, but now it really is, and i'm angry, angry because i am really nice person, and i try so hard and yet everything is falling apart.

Hi Nutcracker

Just found your thread and didn't want to skip by.
I truly hope that you've managed to get some sleep and that you are ok.

I'm sure many of us feel like we're fighting a losing battle some times.
Do you have a dh or dp, dc's.

Would you like to talk about why you feel so angry right now.

my thoughts are with you.

Hi Nutcracker
Hoping also you've got some sleep and maybe feel a bit better for it this morning, but if there's anything anyone can chip in on that would be helpful, please shout. And, if you feel this bad, please go and see your GP - not necessarily for drugs, they can refer you for all sorts of other help. Xx

Thinking of you. Want to talk more? Have you spoken to anyone in real life?

How are you this evening op. Keep talking here. I think many of us feel similar at the moment. Have you anyone in rl you can open up too.

I was moved by the fact that even though you obviously feel very low you consider your children and how they would feel if you were not around.

Ring the Samaritans if necessary to talk to someone because they are non judgemental,you can pour your heart out and get some positive feedback which you deserve.