community-based psychiatric adventures of the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

am not sure if mavis is still in this one

how's Tuesday so far?

I achieved Getting Teen to 'School' for first time in a while and have celebrated by watching 3 episodes of supersize v superskinny. Mad cancerous friend is having surgery today, another skin expander so she can have an implant later (it all went horribly wrong before).

Have finally tried the protein pasta offspring #1 left for me, don't think I'm a fan yet but let's see if it (50g dry weight, 50g 10% feta, tsp of sundried tomato pesto, bag of microwave steamed peas and beans) gives me extra running powers tonight.

Well done Mitchy; a productive morning! I've just this moment got home from Mavis's place.

I've just for back from seeing the GMC psych. Cleared to treat patients for another three months barring any mood changes.

Congrats Mental, well done. I can't imagine how stressful that must be.

I hate it but I know it's for the benefit of my patients. And I haven't any real choice in the matter anyway.

That's great news, mental

Hey snowy, nice to see you

struggling today. rant alert. I'm trying to keep everything together following dh near successful s attempt. despite asking for support from day one, 7 weeks ago, there's been none except for my amazing gp. I've been clear all the way through in a firm but not aggressive way. Even had to resort to a letter to dh's psych. And now he's home and I'm seriously struggling, I'm being treated like the one with the mh probs. I am reacting normally to a nightmare situation. I can't speak to dh, but have massive anger issues. I'd only just started being open with him in the summer via relate and look where that got me. It's simply impossible to start that conversation with him. Just like enpo said a few days ago it is Maddening that having identified when and what would send me spiralling, nobody did anything about it (apparently one referral was lost and another was sat on) and now he's been home for a week.... and I really wish he was still in hospital. And he's been saying in a kindly patronising tone, how am I? How the f**k do you think I am? I had recovered from my last depression caused in no small part by living with him severely depressed for a year (in denial) and then hypomanic (also in denial which I do know is the nature of the beast, but zero insight since "I had a creative period"). I feel like he has wrecked me again and I have had enough. we've had cycles through our marriage that have ended up with him having a crisis, they are getting closer together and more severe. I feel like I have been handed a life sentence. They Dcs are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy he's home, missed him So much. I was happier when he was in hospital. Can't be as a good a mum with him around cos I am so stressed out. He's currently at day hosp and the dcs at school. The thought of the xmas holidays when both of those stop makes me want to be sick.

Oh Queen I don't know what to say; it sounds just awful for you, and so difficult when you're having to do it all with a mind on the effect on your DCs too. Is there anything at all that can be put in place over the Christmas period to give you a break, any charity provision or activity groups? They can't leave you to cope with this alone, surely?

Although I know that they can and will leave you to cope alone, sadly I can't say anything useful but I can only say you're right to be angry IMO.

well done mp

ciq it all sounds awful, cannot see what you get out of this relationship at all - do you feel like you have to stay together for some reason?

(nobody was wondering but have enjoyed enormous supper of whole can of chickpeas roasted with chilis, broccoli and cauliflower florets and cherry tomatoes, now I have quadrupled in size am going to do a bit of lithium and go to bed probably)

Ooh that sounds rather nice. I troughed a large amount of leftover houmous and oatcakes for lunch, follows by half a bucket of yoghurt and some peanuts, ate half a tub of cream cheese with a spoon this afternoon, then ate daal and poppadoms followed by another half-bucket of yoghurt for dinner. It has been an astonishingly leguminous and dairy-heavy day, and I fear for my innards.

CIQ I'm sorry everything is so shit at the moment.

I like the sound of your chickpeas mitchy.

And Enpo I'm in awe of your capacity.

I was a fat fucker on the scales this morning so I've mainly eaten chicken and salads all day

I had the munchies

Thanks all. I have been thinking is on to be angry but seems harder recently? And why and with him - cos there's 2 kids who love him and rhe whole church marriage thing. Its as much like enpo thatasking did help that you know you will need and nothing until things get really bad. I am sat in a did room with my lovely sister. ..

yeah sorry ciq that was a bit blunt of me, you can tell I'm chronically single for a reason, I wish there was more support available for you

its ok mitchy I have thought the same on more than one occasion...

I feel the same way about my relationship with running sometimes it wears me out with its demands (just had to buy more shoes)

Argh have call my baby lollipop, tell me why, he's a-sweeter than-a cherry pie stuck in my head alongside I'm walking on sunshine simultaneously wth the occasional interjection of the hills are aliiiiiiive with the sound of music (lalla lalla) and been stuck with them for HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS. DP is starting to look sligtly irritated

Envy people who only ever get ONE song stuck.

walking on sunshine eh? Katrina Leskanich went to the same school as my (thankfully very estranged) husband for a while on a USAF base

Mmm. Small world. Or something.

at bubblegum pop song about boyfriend being like a lollipop. Although on investigation the cherry pie reference seems to be my insertion. Ahem.

It's always music I hate that gets stuck. Or music gets stuck and I subsequently come to hate it. I once had a mashup of hava nagila and korobeiniki stuck for months. Even having actual music on doesn't help at the moment. My bastard brain keeps finding other songs that I can sing along in harmony to whatever I'm trying to listen to.

I read once that musical autotorturisingautotorturising is a female psychological trait.