community-based psychiatric adventures of the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

am not sure if mavis is still in this one

It will maybe be useful for me to see a more experienced doctor, but then again, maybe not. I guess I just wonder why I've been shifted on again.

Not that I'm not grateful and everything. It's just a bit overwhelming and I seem to be constantly having to meet and get used to new people at the moment.

don't think gratitude comes into it really, any more than, I dunno, if you had to see an oncologist or whatever

still wondering what was for supper

and hello mp, recovered from NY?

A chilli was found lurking within the depths of the freezer.

And yes, I would be grateful if I were able to see an oncologist, too.

If I had cancer, I mean. Otherwise it'd be just weird.

weird indeed

how's Friday so far? pretty fucking cold in east angular

Been asleep most of the morning How about you?

overslept quite severely, someone else had to lead my running group for the 10k but I caught up with them in time for just over 5 miles

of course am currently thinking about The Omelette that I didn't get round to yesterday but really should today, the dying-of-pancreatitis pain is definitely going away, phew

anything much planned for rest of day? we have the thrill of CAMHS psychologist this afternoon

I have to go back to the hospital to get my drugs because they couldn't be arsed to give me more than a day's worth, or a prescription for any more.

So glad your gut pain is easing. It can be so disconcerting having unexplained pain like that, on top of the direct suffering from the pain itself.

I bought a chicken yesterday that weighs over half a stone. Tesco's top weight category for chickens maxes out at 2.7kg and £8.10, but if you look for the biggest one it's often better value - this chicken is over 3.3kg.

Have eaten egg mayo for lunch, have hard boiled eggs in the fridge, and DP is planning to make low carb bread with the remaining 10 or so eggs. I have missed eggs.

I hope the psychologist is helpful.

Well, I suppose the packaging must weigh a little bit. But probably not more than an ounce or two.

fuck me, that's a really big chicken!

pain is most bad, and still there, dull and persistent in my back - the sort of 'meaty' bit between ribs and pelvis but radiating higher up my rib. have decided that I forfeit the right to whinge unless or until I am prepared to see someone about investigating it

god I love eggs. am eating The Omelette (2 eggs, olive oil, onion, spinach and 100g of Apetina 10% feta) on a daring slice of toast and marmite - yum

Ah I'm sorry; I'd hoped your pain was getting better. You know whinging on the internet doesn't really count, though, right? It does sound a bit kidneyish.

Yeah, I had big-lump-of-meat cravings. The NHS is stingy with meat. I know the chicken probably had a miserable life and I do feel guilty, but on the other hand, NEED MEAT.

that's good to know about whingeing online! there is a theory gaining popularity in some quarters that my kidneys were distressed about me not taking lithium for a while (back on it as of Monday) and are crying about the deficiency, but it is definitely better than it was at the weekend, whatever it is

are you cooking that chicken today? even though it is Friday (sprinkling some Catholic germs on the thread)

No, lamb stew today. The chicken is calling to me, though.

I thought Catholics could eat whatever they liked now?

Currently stressed about my drugs. When they discharged me they gave me all the phenelzine they had left (supposedly - I still suspect there is an extra bottle hidden in the fridge because there was one ordered and one that the HTT brought in, but they keep refusing to check in the fridge again), which was three of them, and said I couldn't have a prescription but instead had to drive (and luckily I do have access to a car) all the way back to the ward to get another week's worth today at 2.30, while waiting for a letter to be sent to my GP, who I would need to see to get another prescription. Fortuitously, I already had a GP appointment for a week after discharge, otherwise it's two and a half weeks' wait to see a GP, any GP. "See your GP in a week"? Ha.

But when DP rang the ward today, they said they don't have it yet, and I can ring back at half five to see if they have any for me. By which time it will be too late to ask for an emergency GP appointment. And when I rang round local pharmacies, none of them have it in stock, and what's more, as it's a fridge line, they refuse to order it in unless they have a prescription in hand. Unfortunately due to the timing of my GP appointment I will need more phenelzine straight away as soon as I have the prescription, and won't be able to wait for it to be ordered in. Argh. Should've just submitted like a good little girl and taken the Prozac like they told me to.

At this rate I'm going to have to go on drugs just to cope

I hope your lithium levels aren't too screwed up

wtf

why is it such a mess to get your prescription? I can't even be bothered to walk to the dispensary for mine never mind drive about 20 miles to hospital. That is severely unhelpful of them! I can't believe they were going to prescribe Prozac to someone they thought was hypomanic recently (not can't believe as in 'you are lying' way but in a 'stuff makes no sense' way)

yeah I know dietary restrictions at least in England lifted ages ago but is how my family do it so old habits

Yes, they are being very unhelpful. I am thinking "why bother" myself TBH but DP is rather more insistent.

Everyone in my family goes nutso on Prozac. On both sides. Very bad stuff.

Fish on a Friday is a cultural tradition that I quite like, and there's no reason not to keep up with it. My family are historically mostly Methodist or similar, but in practice I don't know of any relatives with religious beliefs

I rang my GPs and they said I should make sure I get some discharge papers from the ward to give to them, then I can get a prescription before my next appointment, so I won't run out next week. DP has tried to ring them to make sure they can print those off and get them signed before the doctors clock off, but apparently the ward staff are on "quiet time" and can't be disturbed before 4pm, poor dears.

Screw it. I can't be arsed to be proactive. If I run out, I run out. I was going to go to the gym today but it's all up in the air now.

Are you having anything nice for dinner Mitchy?

WRT the Prozac/antidepressants/hypomania, apparently one episode of hypomania does not a bipolar make, and anyone can experience a single hypomanic episode, so I don't need to worry about that (hooray, but also slightly , as it was a nice change).

Also my GPs have apparently panicked and taken me off repeat for EVERYTHING. Just because last week I requested (and was prescribed!) another 3g codeine to replace the lot I took the weekend before last.

Ugh. I'm going to bed.

Hooray, have drugs and (questionable, inaccurate, and poorly spelt) discharge papers.

well done on the drugs! What an ordeal!

nothing nice for supper, no, after family therapy we went to McPukes and I had a spicy vegi deli wrap, four cheese melts and a chocolatey banoffee pie (actually that WAS nice, tasted like churros with hot chocolate fudge!) and it has bumped up a pretty dismal week food wise

(every run or walk I log with my Garmin watch is automatically deducted from my intake on MFP so it's not that I have been starving myself, it's a drawback of the whole 'net calorie' thing I think)

I've never had a negative number

My MFP is a total disaster area. I'm writing off this week as a dead loss.

The wrap sounds lovely. I forget, are you a vegetarian? If so I do apologise for the dead chicken photo.