community-based psychiatric adventures of the mentally normal

[Mitchy1nge]

am not sure if mavis is still in this one

I don't know how to do any of this when I'm so low I can barely move and my head hurts so much.

Can't cope with this. DP won't come to bed, is apparently insisting on staying awake all night. I can't talk with him. It all turns into anger, his and mine. He says I'm not me. He says I'm trying to get a bad diagnosis.he won't let me hurt myself. I feel sick and my head hurts. I need it all to stop.

Sorry I can see MN would rather I didn't pollute the boards and emailed Samaritans instead.

Propranolol?

I wish someone would help me. I'm so tired and heavy I can barely move

The buggee woke up.

Sorry. Will stop posting.

You don't need to stop posting, just post the suicide chat to people like the Samaritans who are equipped to listen supportively, and not so potentially vulnerable as readers of this board

when is your appointment today?

I think I know why Keema's post was deleted and suspect it was related to Enpo's post of 23/11 at 23.57. It was VERY triggering. I think it's a real pity that the system that was agreed (after long consultations and advice from Samaritans) i.e. that any post mentioning specific suicide methods would be deleted. This isn't happening. Maybe there aren't enough staff to monitor the threads but there isn't really much point in agreeing a procedure if it isn't followed.

I've just noticed a lot of inappropriate posts have been deleted, so probably should have checked the thread first.

Enpo I'm sorry I know things are tough but there's others on here who are having a tough time too and talking about suicide methods can be really upsetting. There's no need to stop posting but please stop talking about ways of ending your life.

think MNHQ are quite right to direct someone who is in the frame of mind to post explicitly suicidal material toward an organisation who will read and respond without judgment, really hope Enpo is receiving that kind of support now in real life if not through electronic communication

(and obviously as it's potentially harmful to some readers it simply can't be left to stand)

still thinking of you Enpo

Enpo...I hope you're doing okay.

I'm hanging in there. I've just emailed social services where I used to live, and asked if they will be able to house me in supported accommodation. It would need to be self-contained...my sister had a two bed flat near to where we grew up, and she was allowed kittens and offered help when she needed it, and I think that kind of set up would help me hugely right now. I couldn't cope with shared accommodation, though.

Had a lovely week with DP, in the end. Which was stupid, because now it hurts more that he is gone again, and that he probably won't be back this time. My own fault for not turning him away.

I'm sleeping to stop the thoughts and the pain, and then fighting headaches from oversleeping, and then sleeping more. I can barely function.

I hope everyone else is doing okay. It seems a fraught time at the moment...I'm hoping we'll all feel a little better soon.

@NanaNina

I think it's a real pity that the system that was agreed (after long consultations and advice from Samaritans) i.e. that any post mentioning specific suicide methods would be deleted. This isn't happening. Maybe there aren't enough staff to monitor the threads but there isn't really much point in agreeing a procedure if it isn't followed.

We have removed anything that is specific up to this point.
Please note we do follow procedure - but we don't MONITOR threads - we are a post moderated forum, thereby posts have to be reported to us
We would ask that anything you think that contravenes is reported.
Thanks so much
MNHQ

good luck with your housing application heart things sound very tough, yet you are looking forward and thinking about a future so that has to be a plus point, hope the worst is behind you (not really up to speed with your relationship, are you still separating from one another?)

I need to pick up my prescription really, don't know why I deliberately engineer the day so that I can't get there on time but it will have to be tomorrow now otherwise think things are good with me

we don't MONITOR threads

but I reported a post and had an email to say 'thanks, we are keeping an eye on that thread' so do you sometimes monitor a thread or is it always best to assume an individual problematic post should be brought to your attention?

(I mean when MNHQ have already deleted posts and commented, should we report any further inflammatory material that appears or can we assume you are 'on it'?)

(that was a very general question, beyond this specific thread btw)

Point taken Olivia at MNHQ

Enpo, I wasn't saying that you shouldn't post and I hope that you're getting the treatment you need.

Enpo I hope you're getting the help you deserve and that everything is ok.

Hey enpo please keep posting if it helps but it bear in mind some specific things you say I'm personally finding very triggering and I'm probably not the only one. Hope you and your DH are getting help.

Deregistered to prevent myself making more inappropriate posts and have briefly reregistered to say i am truly sorry for writing posts which were triggering and upsetting to vulnerable people, especially when people have been so supportive to me. I can only say I'm really very sorry.