Bollockybollockybollocky HTT

[EnpoTree]

Basically I have to take bloody diazepam three times a day and be visited by HTT every day and even then the nurse reckons it's 50/50 if I'll need to go into hospital or not. This has gone too far. I'm absobloodylutely sodding fine and visited the drop-in as I was worried I was going to become not-fine and wanted to know how to stop DP worrying unnecessarily after having spoken to CMHT as I was referred from GP as I wanted to avoid becoming depressed and how to maintain my current good humour and general sparkling and effervescent nature. The lesson apparently being that being responsible and proactive with your mental health gets you accused of poor insight and told to take drugs on pain of hospital admission.

She's really fucking scared me. I will not go into hospital. So to avoid it I have to swallow pills that make me slow and stupid and sleepy even though I am totally happy with the way I am now and it's everyone else who doesn't like it. Maybe its everyone else who needs bloody medicating.

I hate this so much. I know its a bad idea to get involved in MH services. So why do I ever go back?

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CORN SYRUP; SEMI SWEET CHOCOLATE (CHOCOLATE; SUGAR; COCOA; MILK FAT; COCOA BUTTER; SOY LECITHIN; PGPR, EMULSIFIER; VANILLIN, ARTIFICIAL FLAVOR, MILK); COCONUT; SUGAR; CONTAINS 2% OR LESS OF: SALT; NAT URAL & ARTIFICIAL VANILLA FLAVOR; HYDROLYZED MILK PROTEIN; SODIUM METABISULFITE, TO MAINTAIN FRESHNESS^

Bleurgh, yes, there it is, polyglycerol polyricinoleate. There was a fashion for it here a few years ago but it seems to have disappeared again as people seem to have stopped buying any product with it in as it just makes the chocolate have no flavour and unbalances the flavour profile so it becomes too sweet. I don't think people were necessarily reason the label, just not repurchasing. Also Mounds as I've now realised are actually Hershey, so doubtless entombed/entwined/enrolled/enrobed in vomityfoot chocoloid substance

CORN SYRUP; SEMI SWEET CHOCOLATE (CHOCOLATE; SUGAR; COCOA; MILK FAT; COCOA BUTTER; SOY LECITHIN; PGPR, EMULSIFIER; VANILLIN, ARTIFICIAL FLAVOR, MILK); COCONUT; SUGAR; CONTAINS 2% OR LESS OF: SALT; NAT URAL & ARTIFICIAL VANILLA FLAVOR; HYDROLYZED MILK PROTEIN; SODIUM METABISULFITE, TO MAINTAIN FRESHNESS

I hate rosewater, that's a big problem when it comes to Turkish delight.

Hershey isn't even chocolate, it's just a brown food that tastes of vomit.

Yes,rosewater is nasty. Tastes like face cream. I wish I could take you to the Turkish delight, baklava, roasted flavours nuts and olive stand that was in my local town today and have you try the coconut loukoumi.

Baklava I have no problem with, I can eat it by the pound

I remember the first time my dad came home from a cpd conference with a special treat for me that wasn't drug pens - a real live (well, dead) Hershey bar, just like id read about in all ky American books, along with koolaid and twinkies and oreos. I was so excited and expecting rich, creamy, delicious chocolatiness exploding in my mouth in the closest thing a seven-year-old can get to a Proustian jamais-vugasm.

I will happily feed you baklava too.

I wish my village had a baklava and olive stall but we're lucky to have the pub.

I didn't get a Proustian jamais-vugasm, by the way. I got a waxy mouthful of salutary lesson in unreasonable expectations.

There isn't usually a Turkish delicacy stall, I have to admit. Usually it sells loom bands and bongs.

Meh, it's still a stall. The biggest draw where I live is the bastard duck pond. Trying not to run the fuckers over is a daily challenge.

Before olanzapine buggered up my insulin response, I used to enjoy dipping a Dougal baklava in a cup of hot sweet cardamom chai

Just eat the ducks.

Keep wanting to say baklavon

Bloody olanzapine, I don't understand why so many people are prescribed it.

That's a bit if a myth, I prescribe what's best for my patient within my formulary.

Hi mandbunit - PLEASE tell me it was a PB one? Any other Kit Kat Chunky is a crime

Enpo I'm off to bed but I'll catch up with you tomorrow. Please try and get some sleep.

Dunno MP - for me it was because i was getting tired with oculogyric crises and my resting pulse on risperidone was 120 also the doctor told me when i asked that it had no side effects! Then told me that to avoid gaining weight all I had to do was stay under 800kcal a day.

I think she must've had some kind of delusional belief that that is humanly possible formore than a month or so (especially on Drpakote and an antidepressant too!)