Feel like a failure taking my meds

[PiperIsOrange]

I know it will take time, but I feel like a total failure that I can't be happy without resorting to taking tablets.

Due to no motivation on looking after myself, including not eating and not sleeping ect, DH makes sure I take my meds every day or I would forget.

Is that a joint decision? Or what they want?

It's a joint decision, I'm very nervous about going back but I'm doing a phased return and got support of HR and my boss.

Hopefully some normality will help.

It's a joint decision, I'm very nervous about going back but I'm doing a phased return and got support of HR and my boss.

Hopefully some normality will help.

I hope it goes well then. You've done really well attending the meeting. I hope it helps you get a bit more normality back.

Having a bad day today, feel like curling into a ball and cry.

DH keeps waking me up because the DC are doing this and that, I want to run away and hide from the world.

I'm sorry it's a bad day Piper. Can you go for a bath or shower and just have a few minutes? Are the DC in bed soon?

Put them to bed early to watch DVD

That's a good plan.
Do you think it's the impending return to work?

I really don't know.

Now the children are sorted what would you like to do?

Sorry I'm like the questioner today! I just would like to help because I know days like this are horrid.

Eying up the bottle of jack Daniels, but I know it will not help.

Not really no. is that your favourite? I'm a dark rum fan.

I love a JD and coke.

I love a pint of real ale. There is a pub near us that is on the canal. It serves fantastic beer and chip butties (homemade chips, not frozen, in chunky bread). I love going and seeing the ducks and enjoying the peace.

That sounds a lovely afternoon out. Do they do egg and chips with bread and butter.

They do and gammon and scampi too. It has an amazing tree in the fields opposite, all Twisted and interesting

My he jack is going down well, so I texted DH while in the same room.

Feeling a bit better now.

Good. Just be gentle with yourself and try and sleep when you can. You have had a lot going on and are doing great. This is a blip.

Looks like an all nighter, dd is very sick got vomiting and diahhora.

Your DH needs to let you sleep. Is he on board with helping you?

Dd only wanted me, she is a mummy girl when I'll.

Piper I hope today isn't too bad. Will be thinking if you.

Thank you, I am really nervous.

I hope I can do this.

I'm sure you can but I understand. Let me know if you're not too tired.