Hypersexuality?

[Imsuchamess]

I have schizoaffective which is all s?mptoms of bipolar one and episodes of schizophrenia. I suffer greatly with hypersexuality when manic. I am a severe childhood sexual abuse victim and when hypersexual I seek out abusive men to sleep with, believeing that I have a mission from God and my blood is poisoned to hurt abusive men who sleep with me.

I am manic and it is pure torture trying not to sleep around. Please help me.

Read what you wrote. You know that you are ill and you know that this is a symptom of your illness. Cling on to that. Do you have a crisis number you can call to speak to someone? You are a valuable person, even if it doesn't feel that way. You can fight these urges. Don't put yourself in harm's way. Try to distract yourself with other activities.