I have wasted my life

[Spousemouse999]

Made no use of my education, stuck in low level jobs and spent past 20+ years struggling with depression and anxiety. Feel ashamed of myself and completely stuck. Been on a variety of ADs over the years but have not helped long term. Seeing counsellor whose stock response is you're good enough as you are but that doesn't change the way I feel. Sometimes the feeling is so overwhelming I feel suicidal. Just don't know know where to turn any more.

I think you need a new counsellor. Things that also helped me included learning how to ride horses, volunteering at my local children's home and singing in a choir. Volunteering takes your attention away from yourself and really builds self esteem, as does learning a new skill.