Not expecting a reply. Just have nobody to talk to

[KimCarcrashian]

I can't stop crying

Sorry. Sp.

I'm such a fool that I'm hanging on to any tiny thing, hoping it's a sign that things will go back to the way they were. :-(

But there are no signs. There is nothing.

Sorry to have posted and run, my household woke up early.

Sometimes it's good to think about the situation as if a friend were going through it; what would be your advice for that friend? It might help clarify things for you.

Also, it is okay to mourn what you thought you had, that is a loss. Just remember it was an illusion. You were likely being true so you have nothing to feel bad about.

So crap. Sorry just letting it out.

Thank you Crew Ella. I know, well I think, it was only an illusion. It's hard for me to think that but it must be true. Who knows? My feelings weren't an illusion. They were real.

And thank you again.

I empathise so much, Kim, I've been there too. You will make it through this. My advice is to let yourself mourn, go through the grief, and it helps make healing quicker.

It's helping just to be on here to let it out as I think it. Selfish I know.

My words, actions and feelings were all true.

Thanks CrewElla. It's helping to let it out on here. It really is. I shouldn't have messaged him when I did. It was a bit heartfelt (stupid of me) and I got a friendly sounding but cryptic reply. Idiot!

My advise to a friend would be to stay away but it is extremely hard.

I'm not functioning very well. Just sitting here. Avoiding music that I used to listen to all the time etc

Do you what you need to to feel better. Sleep, cry, eat, watch TV, read, hang out on Mumsnet. If you need a live person to speak with, & you don't want to engage family or friends, why not call tge Samaritans, it might help. Getting your thoughts out is goid, however you choose to do it.

sorry for my spelling mistakes, typing on my phone is to blame"

Thanks CrewElla. I'm trying to do those things. It's hitting me hard again. I feel broken and ignored. It came out of nowhere

It's a new, raw hurt and it sucks. Try to direct your anger outwards at his actions (I'm not suggesting you contact him); I think anger kept in can turn into depression. Are you taking care of yourself? Are you alone or interacting with family & friends? I hope your okay and working through this.

Hi CrewElla. One week on and I'm still not coping well. I know it will pass. Thank you!