Not expecting a reply. Just have nobody to talk to

[KimCarcrashian]

I can't stop crying

Bastard'

What a fool I am.

Hey OP, I'm so sorry you feel this way. Please know that yours is a completely normal reaction to this and that you WILL make it through to the other side.

You are not a fool! Don't be hard on yourself right now. Just take things as they come and try to focus on something else (like this feed)

Sending hugs xxx

You are absolutely not a fool.

Can you do something for you when you're tempted to message him?
Have a shower, make yourself a cup of tea?

Thank you! Posting on here is helping. I can't keep away from twitter. Reading obsessively like a crazy stalker but at least I'm not posting.

And thank you for the hugs and for being here

You're doing well, twitter is so addictive I think. I've just spent the last half hour looking at @lm_GrumpyCat and @qikipedia .

I use it to stalk celebrities .

And Karl lagerfelds pussy

Snatching a few MN minutes ... you are sounding a bit better already OP. If you can't stay away from his Twitter (which I'm willing to bet is not remotely witty or interesting, BTW ), what about getting away from the computer for a bit? Go for a walk or a run or a look around the shops, call on a friend, phone your mum for a chat, etc? We'll still be here to offer support when you come back :)

Thank you! Your humour is helping :-).

Yes. I need to get some fresh air. Good idea.

I am feeling better than I was. I'm still very up and down. He has also messaged me but I haven't answered. The messages were very casual sounding which is very telling!

Thanks again.

Kim You are my hero for not replying to his messages! Only a few hours ago you were struggling to stop yourself contacting him. That is brilliant. Sounds like you are probably stronger than you think ... if someone had told you this morning, when you started this thread, that in just a few hours you would be ignoring his messages, would you have believed them?

Ugh, that sounds so patronising - it really isn't meant to, sorry. I really am genuinely impressed that you haven't replied to him.

Another one here that wants to say well done for not contacting him.

Now, Karl Lagerfelds pussy you say? The internet is mad.

Oui oui, she is called choupette. She has her own ipad and is a most spoilt pussy.

And you've done fantastically Kim. You sound like you're in a much better headspace than you were this morning.

:-) thank you so much. I'm still struggling, red eyes and all. Still really miss him. But thank you.

Monst, you don't sound patronising. Thank you.

Feeling better than I was. Still not great but ok. Thanks everyone!

Feeling horrible again. I did message him (I know, I know). It wasn't good. I feel worse now. You are all right.

I'm not expecting anyone to read this. I'm just feeling really crap again so here I am. I still don't understand how or why this suddenly happened. I still long for the way things were.

It's pathetic really. I just feel so, so sad. Not all the time but it comes in waves. Stupid I know but I miss him.

It's not stupid, it's the way you are feeling. Be kind to yourself and give yourself some space to grieve and breathe. There are people right here who want to help and listen.

I hate this. Why?

It's made me question everything including myself.

Thank you Crewella.